Please read, really please read.

The modern-day situation that’s trending is something I like to call ‘intermediate dating’. It’s that thing where you’re not sure if you’re best friends, sex-buddies, boyfriend/girlfriend, or enemies with a person who you interact with regularly. How can we genuinely not be able to identify what we are with someone else? If you spend significant amounts of time together, and your time apart is full of interaction via cell phone – isn’t it safe to say that you’re with each other? Or does it not count because it was never officially discussed? Yeah, it probably doesn’t count. I mean, if you don’t even have an anniversary date, how can it be a legitimate relationship? I don’t know, and in all likelihood, the parties involved don’t have a clue either. Sadly, this is a stressful scenario that many are tangled up in today.

There’s a rise in the fear of commitment, leading to a lack of labeling. It’s simpler for some to see movies, eat dinner and talk to a person whenever there’s time, than to define themselves and have a relationship classification to live up to. So while certain people want to half-date, there are a number of people who want the whole enchilada – which is a disastrous combination. It’s hard to be relaxed about trusting someone you care about when they can be involved with anyone else, and attempt to justify it on the technicality that you’re not ‘official’. Then there’s the fact that even if you claim not to care, and have a friends-with-benefits type of connection, you’re probably destined to fail. Eventually someone will develop stronger feelings, and if they’re not reciprocated, it’s catastrophic. Most physical based relationships, with no committed agreements come with an early expiration date.
 
Guards are up. Not just people with mommy or daddy issues – but everyone. People in general seem to be especially concerned for their emotional well being going into new connections. It’s like when you see people running away from something, so without knowing what they’re evading – you run too. We’re guided naturally by instincts to protect ourselves, even if we’re just mimicking preventative measures that we see others taking. The fear of commitment and highly protected hearts are evident in multiple ways. There’s no scale to measure it, but I assure you that we’re a part of the most sarcastic, cynical generations ever. We make jokes and excessively attempt wittiness to stave off compliments, affection or the professing of feelings. Each humorous comment serves as a bouncer, rejecting people at the door of your heart. It’s not that we can’t be serious, it’s that many just don’t want to. Serious is scary.

Realistically there are plenty of other specific reasons why dating has seemingly grown more difficult. Despite there being billions of people in this world, it’s hard finding people who you can open up to, and completely trust with your heart. Ultimately we can only do our best to give others the benefit of the doubt, and treat each other as individuals. We can’t categorize a bunch, because of the behaviors of one or two not-so-great people. Yes, we see more cheating and separation than ever – but we can’t allow ourselves to date in fear of it. All a dater can hope for is that their heartbreaks and rejections weren’t for nothing. That eventually the road leads to meeting someone special. Someone who makes you feel as if you don’t need to deflect, and equally important – doesn’t deflect you. 

Rule of thumb.

Life is too short to waste time on people who wouldn't waste their's on you.

Okay moving onnnn, I've got lots to share but I think I'll have it up on a different post. Basically it'll be about how I spent my weekends (Thursday, Friday and Saturday) with my gfs but that has got to be on hold because I want to have it pretty detailed and also, wait for the photos to be uploaded from my phone to my work desktop. Don't want to jinx work but lately, I've got plenty of time to do whatever I want. Did I mention that I've finally booked my accommodation to Krabi!? Hehe can't wait for the tickets. I just need final confirmation from Zie as to whether she is going with me or not which btw, have been taking quite a while. Till then lovelies! xx

Escapade.

 I wished I can leave and never some back but that would be stupid because we all know that's never gonna happen. -_-

If I can't bring my partner along, I'd love to see him before I leave and when I come back.
That would be nice isn't it? Yet again, that's never gonna happen because I.. Don't have a partner. -_-

Haiz the story of my life couldn't get any boring and sad than this eh?

*edit* Alright just ignore me. The time of the month is coming and I'm naturally emo nemo (which usually lasts for 2 weeks hahaha) and I have this stupid need or rather, tendency to be clingy and such. Like an eewww right? Hahaha okay this is embarrassing. Bye.

Annoyed.

If I've got something to say, I'll share. If not, please stop asking and fishing for updates because for god's sake, there is nothing. Really nothing.

He's not alone and neither are you.

I can’t imagine the year you’re having. I don’t know how you are so so so strong and you are such a good, kind, caring, funny person and you don’t deserve this any of this, and I know you have moved on but I just want you to know that everything will be okay.

As I lay my eyes on you.

My heart skip a beat. You're one of the best, Ted Baker.

We're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again.

Meredith: When we say things like "people don't change" it drives scientist crazy because change is literally the only constant in all of science. Energy. Matter. It's always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying. It's the way people try not to change that's unnatural. The way we cling to what things were instead of letting things be what they are. The way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones. The way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that anything in this lifetime is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change that's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment we can have another chance at life. Like at any moment, we can be born all over again.

IJ friends are friends for life.

It's a crazy time, everytime whenever I'm with them and pardon the quality of photo please.

What's a night out at a Turkish cafe without pots of Apple Tea, Butter and Garlic Bread and all the famous dips! Not forgetting the chicken wings that I wiped out half! Hahaha it's just so sedap. Or.. I was just plain hungry and who the hell says no meat - chicken wingssss!??!?! NOBODY.

Always a joy when I get to spend time with all 3 of them and till now, I never quite regret repeating my N'level because if I didn't, I would never known this special ladies of mine. They are the kind of people that even after meeting for monthssss, things never quite change.

It's amazing how fast time flies and 7 years later, this friendship has bloom into nothing but better. In fact, better is an understatement. Praveena aka tallie dark chocolate is now a cabin crew with one of the top airline, Nikita is finishing her degree in UK (and I loveeee to visit her there somedayyyy) and Maria have mastered speaking German and is with the insane shipping industry!

Never had to worry, we've got each others' back. Definitely, definitely.

Pain in the ass.

Today didn't exactly started out well or rather I didn't went to sleep on a good note. It was more of a whatever note. Hmmm right if that even exist. Anyway.. First up, I overslept and missed sahur + subuh. If that's not any worst, I decided to snooze till 0705 and had to rush to work. Ironed my work dress and that idiot of an iron decides to heat up a lil too much and leaves this burnt like mark on my favourite dress which btw, was worn less than 5 times? Urrgh I really hate that cheap iron. Idk to you but $120 for a Philips is cheap and it's just an asshole.

And as much as I love work, sometimes it's unfair when things gets pushed to me. It's not that I don't want to help but how can I always end up helping/doing someone else's job? Wish I could elaborate but urrgh whatever (yeah again).

Okay sorry. I think my PMS is acting up and kindly don't cross my line. Things that are funny to you may not be at all funny to me. Till then, xx.

Office of Corporate Relations - Corporate Events team ftw!

I don't do this often but here's a few snapshots of my colleagues and student ambassadors after our whole event is over! Phewwww like finally and we can all have a breather before the next comes up..  

 Just check out how wide my smile was hahaha. It was *radiating* with happiness because I can now go home on time. :P

As real as it gets.

1. You feel compelled to be loyal.
2. You think of ways you will love them more than you think of the ways you hope they will love you.
3. You start compromising on things you thought you wouldn’t.
4. You’re happy when they are, because they are.
5. There is a sense of peace and ease that comes with the thought of them.
6. You feel challenged to be better.
7. You allow yourself to be vulnerable because you feel accepted unconditionally.
8. All of a sudden, you understand why so many people settle down.
9. You have a newfound understanding of and appreciation for your previously detrimental failed attempts at love.
10. Every part of this person enamors you. This is especially true in the beginning.
11. You keep coming back, no matter how hard it gets (and it will get hard).
12. You start counting the miles between you and the days between your birthdays. You remember what they were wearing the day you met them, what they said their favorite color is, and you start accounting for all the other little, beautiful things you’ve picked up about them, all in vivid detail.
13. You want to tell anybody who will listen of your newfound love (you’re not ashamed to be with this person).
14. Being with them is not about the vanity of having a significant other or an elaborate wedding or someone to talk to when you’re lonely. It’s who they are that keeps you.  

Written By: Brianna West 

Lust of the month.

My never ending love for blazer. The question now is.. Yes or No?

Hope when you take that jump you don't fear the fall.

You know what? I can't believe I've yet to blog about my short trip to KL and here I am shortlisting hotels/resorts for my upcoming trip. I'm supposed to go with Zie but I'm not very sure if she'll be able to make it as she seems pretty busy lately. Nvm that, I thought I'd just inform her later and do the bookings myself because my mind is kinda decided. I'll go ahead with or without a company.

4D3N to be spent by the beach, kayaking into beautiful limestone caves, perhaps be able to do a deep water solo (I was told that I need to be in a group of 4 to do it but oh wells, we'll see how), a lil rock climbing at Railay, sweet body scrubs and lotsa Thai food.

I'm very sure that nothing can get any better than what I've planned. Though that being said, I want this trip to be as free and easy as possible. I can't be bothered to ask for people's opinion nor having to keep a look out for others. It's gonna be as independent as possible.

Now, to pray that everything will fall in place and that I'll be safe and sound to and fro SIN. I need this retreat and I've never been so sure of doing something (on my own) ever before.

More than just infatuation.

Maybe I'm just confused maybe I'm not. I know what I want but does the other know what he wants. Like really, does he? I took the risk and I even thought, hey let's give this a try, who knows things can work out great between us, but look where it brought me to?

Nothing ever stays nor will be the same forever and that sucks. That sucks because you're accustomed to the the things he does for you everyday. The good morning and good night messages (though I really want to avoid such sweet things because I'm afraid that if he leaves, I'll be longing for the same hi sayang(s) day and night), the long phone-calls and those quick ones, those that last 2-3minutes to simply inform about his whereabouts or even ask where I am (and that's it hahaha) or share his frustrations. Weird as this may sound but I appreciate this kind of gestures. It makes me feel.. Important and just like every hopeless lover out there, I too want to be appreciated in a special way.

My question right now is, how do I know that I'm significant to a particular him? I'm dying to know what's going on in a men's mind and heart. This lady here is tired of playing this.. What few may call a game.

Narcissism

1. Inordinate facination with oneself; excessive self-love; vanity.

2. Psychoanalysis. Erotic gratification derived from admiration of one's own physical or mental attributes, being a normal condition at the infantile level of personality development.

Give me a transport and fried food please.

I'll be on duty tonight till perhaps 10.30-11pm and all I have in mind is that if I have my own vehicle to drive myself back home. Or rather, drive myself first to the nearest KFC (that closes really late) because I really x100 want their chicken, both original and spicy please! and the cheese friesssss. Oh god I've been wanting to eat those for the longest time evaaaaa! Either that, or I will have to succumb to Mcds for some McSpicy and loving apple pie.. ♡♡♡ Okay I can't believe I actually blogged about this. Hahaha. Anyway, 3 more ceremonies before Commencement is over and then followed by the dinner. AND IT'S GONNA BE A WRAP!

Ps: It's not that difficult to please me. ;) 

Somedays.

"No one is perfect. Some days we worry about the little things, we let them get to us until we’re suffocating in a dark abyss. But then there are the better days. Those somedays when you feel like anything can happen, that even the meanest word can’t touch your happiness. I live for the somedays when I wake up and I know I can survive anything that is thrown at me. The somedays where hope runs through my veins and I believe it."

Happiness lies only within yourself.

I'm pretty excited for the future, for my future and I think I've fallen in ...

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Have gottten used to Laduree and many thanks to none other than our photographer from Werkz. I Major love goes to the Pistachio and Chocolate (like duh hehehe) flavour! Aside from hot Mocha, my next favourite hot drink for the norm Starbucks would be Cocoa Cappuccino! But not all places does the drink right. I usually have mine on campus at UTown NUS because...  I spent half my daily life there. Hahahaha.

Met up with Renny on one of the Saturday morning for breakfast an a quick catch up over Eggs Ben and Salmon Scramble. I really appreciate the time this girl had for me even though she only had a few hours of sleep the night before. If you're reading this, sayang kau. Hehe. + I cannot wait to give the Clarins Brightening Exfoliator a try this week and share with you babes out there on how good/bad the product is. Been reading a lot of beauty blogs and the bloggers can't seem to stop raving bout it!

Apologies for the abrupt end but I gtg! xx

Story of my life.

I tend to not talk about it and I get really awkward when people were to ask me how things are with my "dating" life. Whatever thattt is. Haha I've pretty much lost touch but I'm not gonna lie that I do miss those days and sure, I do get lonely. Oh wells, I just tell myself that maybe my time have yet to come and I shall not force nor think too much (though it always lingers on my mind!). :P

Nonetheless, during a dinner at Usman's last weekend with a friend of mine, he asked "What was the sweetest thing someone ever did for you?" and.. I couldn't answer him. Then next question was, "You've never received flowers before?!" and when I shook my head, you should have seen his facial expression! Priceless. Hahaha.

And here I am obsessed with fresh flowers. Hahaha only god knows how I felt.

Okay that's all for now! I gotta run to prepare for my event which is happening on Monday and it's gonna last for a good 2 weeks! I prolly am gonna die hahaha drama mama abit. May god bless me! XOXO.

A small take away.

"We are actually all the same, yet different in every way. At the end of the day, we are but a universe of dream catchers, and to chase after our dreams, we lace up our shoes and put our best foot forward. Some crawl, some walk, and some run; the next step may be tough, but every step brings us closer to heaven, and you cannot get to heaven if you are scared of being high.

Life may not be a bed of roses all the time, just like how every day may not be good, but there is surely something good in every day."

"Who to blame when a leaf falls from a tree? The wind who blew it away? The tree that let it go? Or the leaf who got tired of holding on?"

If money were to drop from the sky..

All those would be mine..

Avicii at Siloso > Mary's Wedding Reception at Nabins > Esplanade Outdoor Performance.

It's been a while since I last went out and truly enjoyed myself. Sometimes I get worried for myself. Haha. I just hate falling sick because I'm an idiot weakling, really.

Anyway..

Again, many many thanks to Issy for the tickets and Zaimah for asking me along! I went ahead despite feeling under the weather because I thought I'd put the complimentary tickets to good use. Andddd hell yeah I did hahaha. I'll never forget the night or rather, morning because we danced in the rain. C'mon it's not often that you get to party in the rain and never in my wildest dream would I go for a foam party. This was the closest I could get and happy was an understatement. :)

Just a quick impromptu video for you lucky people. PRESS PLAY. Hahahaha.

Always a joy to see another one bites the dust. Weddings always have a certain feeling to it. An overwhelming happy feeling because two people are finally gonna be halal together. It's just beautiful. I'm sorry if I lack of a better usage of word here but guys, 8.30am right now hahaha.

Gotta love the idea of having the solemnization at Masjid Sultan followed by reception at Nabins. Congratulations again to Mary and Farhan. Blissful marriage and may you both last long forever and ever! xx

  

You don't know how geram I am when I see cute chubby babies. That's Sharleez Alysa and please don't mind my face. Just concentrate on the cutie botak girl! MAJOR LOVE FOR HER PLEASE. Sharleez is Wan Sarah's 2nd daughter and right now, she's having her 3rd child and it's a baby boy! Omgggg I can't believe it either but a mummy's gotta do what a mummy's gotta do. Hehe.

And that we girls proceed to.. Esplanade for some "reliving of the younger days". :P

It's been a while since we last were at the outdoor theatre for a live performance. That night just makes me reminisce.. Hahaha funny, young and care-free days are over but one thing that's for sure, funnier days (though a lil more serious because we are all working adults. Oh god I feel old typing that out already! ) are here to come. Who knows.. ;)

Of course, the night isn't complete without food. Shah Alam for Roti John, Maggie Goreng and Teh Tarik. With none others than my favourite girls. ❥❥❥

A.

Sure being single does feels a tad lonely but I've never felt "stronger" and "happier" before. I guess thing happens and you change when you meet different people in your life. You tend to weigh and give a little more thought to what they have to say to you.

It's not that difficult and honestly, change only begins from within and cheers to another half of 2013.