So much for "travelling on a hiatus".

Dad asked if anyone wants to follow him and mom to Melaka for a wedding and I thought, hey why not balik kampung? Also, I've been wanting to go for a mini trip with my parents sans the sisters hahahaha. Getting stucked at home with them for a long weekend.. I cannot do it anymore manz. I'll turn into a monster and one of my resolution is to be patient and I don't wanna burst it very early of the year. :P

For the record, I can't stand girls who:

•  Wake up past 10am.

• Takes forever to help with the house chore. FYI, I'm the kinda person that would be done doing the laundry, vacuumed the whole house, wipe down the window grills, sanitized my vanity area and wash all my makeup brushes, fold all my clothes and on some weekends, I'll help mom to cook and everything will be completed before it strikes noon. To also note that I do this kinda cleaning every Saturday morning. I loveeeeeeee cleaning as it gives me a sense of satisfaction. But I get really irritated when no one helps to clean orrr will do all the cleaning up at after lunch and dilly dally with their time. Nak mintak kene spray air!

 Nonetheless, I'm really thankful that my second sister, Shahidah, have been really helpful in keeping the room and house neat and tidy. Praying hard that she will cultivate all this sincerely and continue doing so when I'm no longer around. My parents, are not getting any younger yo! :(

Anyway, we are hoping that there will still be available bus tickets during the CNY period despite the news that I've been reading. I can't wait to purchase a VVIP coach for the Melaka tip + we've agreed on a Peranakan theme boutique hotel for our 2 nights there! We planned to head to Larkin this Saturday noon and may god bless us with zero queue for whatsoever. It'll also be a great time for me to stock up on my ZA two way powder (uses this to set my liquid foundie), wet wipes (yes please!) and get myself a hair trim! x

"You can't wait forever. Do something and make it happen."

I set to be the best that I can be but I tend to stop doing things halfway. So much words and so little actions from me to myself and the only person to blame is.. Yeah you know, me. I know that perhaps my life is supposed to go the other way around but disappointment creeps in once in a while and I'll question why haven't I complete a certain "achievement" bla bla bla. I don't know if I'm supposed to lower my expectations and work with what I have now or what? Scratch that. On second thoughts, that's what I will have to do - Work with what I have. I choose not to lower any expectations till I try completing it even if it takes me 5 years to do. Will be 30 years old by then but heck, better late than never. And nope, shall not write down the list of things I wanna complete but I will do so when I get some real action going.

At the end of the day, I'm doing this for myself and no one else.

If you want better, go get better.

At 25 and I think I really need to put my shit together. I feel like I've been spending way more than I should have and that my savings are not increasing by how much I envisioned it to be. I pretty much told myself that right after my Vietnam trip is over (yes I just came back from Phuket with family heheheh), I'll go on a travel hiatus till 2017 June. In sha allah I'll be able to graduate by then! It's always been one of my "goals" before I do the next 2 crazy things in life. 1) Solo Trip. 2) Get married.

I would love to finally put on braces in 2016 and that before I leave for my solo trip, I'll have perfect straight teeth that it gonna be as white as snow white. Hahahaha. Just gotta pray hard that I will remove my wisdom tooth with ease, I have 4 to remove fyi, and that I will be okay after a week. I can't be bothered to remove 2 at a time and then suffer for one more time. :(

 In a nut shell, here's what my life plan is gonna be like:

1. To have my braces on and hope to have it removed in 18 mths = June 2017.
2. To pass all my modules and graduate with a Bachelor in 18 months = June 2017
3. To go crazy and do one hell of a good solo trip upon graduation = November 2017
4. To do a CO2 laser treatment to remove my acne scars = March 2018
5. To khatam quraan omg please before I get married = June 2018
6. To in sha allah have a beautiful solemnization with my Sayang = August 2018
7. To own a place called mine that is clean and lovely in all aspect = December 2019
8. To have major renovations done for the home = December 2020
9. To have mini Shiqs and Zaki in sha allah hahahahaha so scary so much blood = December 2020.
10. To own a car or a black Birkin before I turn 35.

Of course, I can only sketch and work towards all that la. But at the end of the day, God will decide and I'm praying hard that God and I will have some kinda telepathy and that we'll be in the same path. Hahahaha.  The year have yet to end but I hope that when 2016 comes, I will be more discipline. Read somewhere that what I need is 3-6 months in order to have that kinda commitment and it'll be easier to move on from then on. For 2016, all I have to do is concentrate on building my savings more before I start mini investing. Haiya idk la, I've just been reading on articles this whole year and I thought I should try it out when I'm young. We shall see...

And yes, life does not end when I get the #10. I have pretty much budgeted on how much we need to put aside for the major renovations, if we should proceed with loans and if yes how much, the amount to set monthly for our kids primary and secondary education, the budget for our holidays and many more. Won't be covering all these in one post but I will when I feel like it. :P

Till then lovelies, plan for your future. x

Period rants.

I hate it when the the time of the month hits me, monthly. -_-

Besides the fact that my lower back feels like as if it's gonna break any time and the never ending excruciating pain in my tummy, I tend to over think, a lot, at night. Two night ago, I deleted my Instagram off my hand phone because I wanted to"get away" from all things social media. But what the hell right? The first thing that came to mind was, "What a childish move!" but hey, at least it didn't disturb anyone else right?

Anyway, I'm so tempted to hit a women's clinic to do a more thorough check-up but hey, the stuff I've been reading online scares the shit out of me. No way I'm I ever gotta cut a small hole near my belly button to look for stuff. I wished I'm married and attempting for a baby now. Call me crazy but hey, the last thing I ever wanna know is that I'm unable to bear a child. Torturous pain since I was 15, 10 years later to know that I can't conceive? I'll kill myself. No kidding. Been postponing my dream of having a child since I was 21 years old!!! Nope, this is not a joke or some kinda weird ambition. I've always wanted to be a young mom. FYI please.

Ps: Please don't tell me to go and get married ASAP because we both are not financially ready (we would be if we sacrifice our major holiday plans and erm.. My materialistic buys. Yes yes cutting down by a whole lot!) and I doubt we will ever get to do a nikah in that mosque followed by sit down reception for the very close ones. So yeappp don't suggest that please, my heart will ache. Hahahaha.

Trying to keep fit.

A few weeks back or more, we were supposed to trek for the Tree Top Walk but we ended up at Bukit Timah Nature Reserve before we had an okay time eating at Al-Azhar for their Sambal Stingray, Tom Yum Soup and yeah.. You know the drill. Hearty food, what's not to love?! Hehehe. Anyway, we went for our first run together (after 10months official?) at West Coast Park yesterday and I almost died trying to catch up with someone who runs weekly and sometimes more. In which later we had Mcds! HAHAHA. Ps: I love the Spicy Chicken McWrap and cup corn! The only thing we both wanna do is to keep moving and ensure that we don't grow a little too much flesh on our body and yes we are aware that we aren't exactly the kind that would gain weight tremendously but hey, better be safe than sorry? :P

Quarter life crisis?

I am at this particular cross road of my life and I simply want to just drop everything. I don't have the mood or rather, motivation to work anymore and I wanna quit uni. Another 2 years of studying seems like a longgggg way to go and I know that many have been ensuring me that it'll all be worth it in the end. Cmon I already know that but I literally am doing all this against my own "will". If that even makes sense because deep down I know I wanna own and complete a degree. Some may say that a paper certificate will not dictate how you'll live your life but to me, that might just be a basis to what I can build upon. If you get what I mean, good and thank you.

As for work wise, I feel like my partner is not doing as much as I can or would do. I know age is catching up on her but to have the same the job position, I sometimes feel like life is hell unfair. I feel like my income should be higher. Or maybe I'm not thankful enough for what god has somehow or another, given me. I don't know. I just don't feel like working or doing repetitive events yearly. Though I've only been here for 3+ years. And not that the events are boring or what la coz every single year there'll be tweaks and additions to "spice things up" a little. A definite plus point is that most of my colleagues are such nice people and there are so many benefits being in this company.

Haiz I'm in such a freaking dilemma right now and that if I get 3 calls for a chance to "move on", I'll so my solat istiharah and then we'll see how things goes.. Till then, xx.

Will the ground just swallow me up already?

I've neglected this space for way too long, close to 2 months.. But who am I kidding? It has always been the case and I lack of discipline in penning down my thoughts along with many other things which includes, eating my supplements on daily, regular revision (oh god another warning email from Dr Luke), procrastinating in doing twice a week jogs and the list goes on...

These days, I've been thinking of way too many things and I wonder if I'm born to be an over-achiever or perfectionist though I know there's no such thing as a perfectionist after reading this article.Mehh. I just wished I could take a step back on sooooo many things but that means I will "lose out". Only god knows if I'm making sense right now but yeah that's how I feel at this very minute.

My love life has been nothing but great, awesome, ze best I've ever had but I seem to worry for things have being going on way too well. Sure it's a blessing to be on the same terms at every level and I share with him almost everything except for those days where I'm too bloody tired and occupied. But there's always the 'but'. Hahaha maybe I'm just crazy, I don't know. I just thank god after every subuh, marghrib and ishak, yes I've yet to do zohor and asar at work. Tryingg to work on it but... 

I love my mom and dad so much and sometimes I feel like I've neglected them by a bit. I'm the kind of person who loves spending time at home and sadly or not, lately, I've been having frequent dinners outside and the feeling sucks? So I try to "compensate" by packing food from home to have for lunch the next day. At the same time, I know I need to go out and meet my girlfriends and partner too. Which by the way, is a good beautiful handful. Striking a balance in life has never been a difficult task but why is it so now? If only I can split myself up. Or maybe I just need a breather. Or keep to my schedule and follow it closely like a freaking robot. -_-

Let's not begin on how torturous work was for the past 2 months and right when we thought we can take 5, another bomb drops on us. Oh wells, I've been thinking of other options as who doesn't want a higher income right? And especially when more responsibilities will be upon myself in a few years time... Never mind that, we'll let time decide as I'm in no rush for a career switch.

Ps: 1) My Istanbul trip's cancelled again. Yeap this is the second time and I think I've pretty much redha and maybe do it after marriage or "defy" my Dad's or Zaki's words. Yes yes I know, Zaki's only my boyfriend but I don't want unnecessary worries from him. Bleah. 2) I was so close to purchasing the items in my lust list but if I do then I'll be "sad" for wasting $$$$ on materials and not on a trip.

alice + olivia // starbucks cutie

Someone please tell me how cute this is?!?!?! I would totally love to have it on my work desk as it's uber chic but it's pretty exorbitant as this limited collection comes in a set complete with a Starbucks Card, tote bag and ceramic mug - all adorning the playful and iconic #staceface. The sets* (only 88 available if I'm not wrong!) are available only at Starbucks ION Orchard for $128. And I'm pretty excited to share a sneak peek with you guys on how my current desk looks soon as I've been trying to 1) Jazz it up and sticking to a "theme". 2) Get fuchsia peonies or white roses at the side table as well but I haven't got the chance to visit Far East Flora. :( 

Ps: Yeap crazy procrastination going on there. Hahahaha.

Valentine's 25th @ The Duxton Hotel.

 

My views on The Duxton Hotel is that it was too dim for a birthday party. It actually turns the atmosphere to be a little "gloomy" especially when coupled with frequent rain and lesser light that comes into the hotel. But of course, for a cosy staycation for two it might have been nice though I wouldn't recommend and would rather one head over to another boutique hotel. I do have to say that the lobby was nicely curated but aside from that, no biggies bout the place uh. The only thing I liked was prolly the bathroom because it was all in emerald green marble!!! 

 

May this #quarterlifecrisis be a wonderful turning point to begin something new and that all great things be sprinkled upon you darling.
 Have a blessed birthday kak yims hehehehe aka valentine!

My hair is my crowning glory.

A month ago, I changed my shampoo to Diane Moroccan Oil and damn that was an unfortunate bad bad decision. I don't know how few bloggers can say that their hair became softer and all that. Okay fine, maybe different hair textures reacts differently. But my hair and scalp have alhamdullilah been in good shape and therefore I barely had trouble with any shampoos out there. :(

Been trying to go all sulphate-free for the past 1 year and gonna continue doing so. I mean.. I'm trying and therefore it has always been either Organix or Avalon Organics. I alternate between those two brands and would faithfully put this Neem/Coconut/Olive oil on my hair twice a week. Gonna order Oh Hello Hair! pretty soon to simply stock up. Amazing stuff but I do think it's a little pricey for something where I can get from Mustafa? Different brand but it does serves its purpose and therefore it's totally up to you! Sure sometimes it doesn't smell that pleasant but hell, I'd rather have my hair soft, shiny and healthy with all naturale products.

Okay I don't know why I'm even ranting about all these when I've so much work to do but yeah. I cannot wait to do some kind of a treatment and perhaps snip my hair a little? It's getting so annoying, dry and long (though many tells me that my hair is fine already!) hahahaha. Till then, XOXO.

Sleep.

I don't know how to explain the feeling I have right now. It's like too much to handle? The Bridges event is over yesterday and I have another 2 more pending in which it's quiteee a load on my already aching shoulders, literally. NUS 110 is on 1 Feb (i've over 800 rsvp to take care of!) and NUS Open Day (imagine the logistics and calling of secretaries for bla bla and etc) falls on the 14 March. Oh god, typing those two dates down already give me the chills because there really are a lot to be done!!! Ohhh since we are at these dates, I might as well say that my first Group Based Assignment falls on the 8th Feb and TMA01's deadline is on the 22nd Feb. KILL ME ALREADY PLEASE.

I do question myself if the additional commitment that I have now, pose a little obstacle in balancing my schedule.. I mean, I don't dread nor do I not like it. In fact, extra time spent daily is love and I appreciate being fetched and always always always be thankful for having such a kind hearted, loving other half. Ps: I'm madly in love with you, Muhammad Zaki.

Just so you know, the amount of coffee I take daily doesn't really help anymore. Sure, all you need is probably 6 hours of sleep each night but hell, for someone who sleeps regularly by 10pm.. Sleeping in after midnight is extremely draining. Some say that I should probably start "training" for the future but hell no? Sleep is precious. Fucking precious to me and I get easily moody if I don't have enough of it.

A little too late for an update.

I've been feeling so lucky and blessed with all that has been happening in my life right now. I can never thank god enough for all the love, happiness, health and a little bit of wealth that He had showered me with. There are so many things I'd like to share but I don't have the photos in hand but I will and shall do it full force when I get a chance to do so. Would loveeee to keep things going and not just have a stale platform.

Yeah yeah I know... I've said that many times but I no longer want to procrastinate anymore. Shall not care if people read, it's mainly for myself to document the things that happens to me daily/weekly? One thing that I'd like to do is to update at the very least every 4 days starting in 2015 onwards. Probably begin with a reflection on my next post as November 30 just passed. I gotta have things written down on what I've achieved and what more I should be achieving after turning 24. Omggg I feel like I'm underachieved things but at the same time, I feel that I'm on the right track? Keyword: think. After all, there's nothing to rush right? I have many many more years ahead of me. In sha allah!

Ps: My sayang bought me a GoPro Hero 4 as a birthday gift and I had it opened 2 days before the official midnight. Hell, I even read his extremely touching yet funny birthday letter way before I was supposed to! Anywayyyy, I'm still getting the hang of it........ AND I CANNOT WAIT TO LEARN/EXPLORE/TAKE GOOD ANGLES OF EVERYTHING. ESPECIALLY PHOTOS OF MYSELF. HAHAHA.

PADI Open Water Dive at Tioman with Amazing Dive.

To dive nearing the monsoon season (rather we were a week into the season as Mersing and Tioman was pretty much abandoned!) has it's pros and cons but I choose to see the positive side to it. Not often do we get the island and dive spots to ourselves aren't I right?  To descend to as close to 12 metres deep down was pretty daunting especially for someone who've got equalizing problems. As much as I've followed instructions closely, which is to "equalize as you descend" aka softly blow your nose on every other breath that you take, the pressure was a little too much for me but I was able to complete and earn my license by the end of the 3 days! YAY.

Nonetheless, I was so thankful for Aylssah and Caleb who've helped me greatly through out the whole weekend trip. They were ever so patient, friendly, skillful and always assured us that things will turn out fun (which it is!) or giving us tips and advices along the way. Life under the water was indeed beautiful though there is so much we can see in Tioman. I do hope to do a few leisure dives later part of the years where I can see perhaps see more fishes or sharks? Hahaha that would be hell one of a bucket list stricked off! 

 

I'll never forget that moment when we dived and kinda strayed away further off from our boat which resulted in me shivering, thanks to the cold water and none stop breeze. AND smarty me did not bring a single change of clothes nor a towel! But thank god for my huge and long shawl that which I used to wrapped myself with. Didn't helped much but it's better than nothing. Keeping my wet suit on is a bad bad idea when you're freezing cold fyi! Kindly do not laugh at my ugly tan line. Looking at it is depressing but there's nothing I can do except to let it wear off or.. I have to go for some tanning session with Zaimah but I'm too lazy to do so as I don't want to get any darker than I already am now. :/

All the snapshots were taken with my uncle's GoPro Hero Black 3 and right now, I'm totally regretting for not taking tons more photos because laziness got the better of me. I wished I had snapped the people I hanged out with late at night at the one restaurant that is open, sharing plates of fries and individual drinks (I had teh tarik while the rest got good beers and more alcohol hahaha!) watching JB vs Pahang, the beautiful deep blue salt water that turns turqoise at some places (yeah those picturesque scenery) those moments in the boat getting from one dive sites to the other (we did a total of 5 sites), the 4 hours bus ride from SG to Mersing and another 5-6 hours from Mersing to Tioman via the boat. Damn bloody epic please because we reached the island only at 5am and to be up for breakfast by 9am before we proceed for our first dive!

And nope I'm not complaining because hell, it was an adventure. Especially after bunking into what was a mini "chalet".. All that I'd reveal is that I'm lucky there was a jug for us to boil water else, I do not know how I'm gonna shower with the use of a tempayan and ice cold water. Hahaha. Wouldn't want to end this post without thanking my sister ketiak mama for accompanying me and despite the fact that we were supposed to be each other dive buddies, I kept abandoning her half way because I take forever to descend. HAHAHA.

Till my next mini trip! xx

Pinch me I'm in cloud 9.

Anyone who knows me would know that I'm a total sucker for these kinda thing.

Anyway, caught The Hunger Games: Mockingjay - Part 1 yesterday and I'm in love with white roses even more. 

Especially those sprinkled with gold dusts.

A little to early to say, a little too early to plan but.. If you fail to plan, you plan to fail.

I am no where near in being all this B2B rants but because my closes online babes are tying the knot within this 2 years, I find myself reading through blogs just to pass some time and simply learn. Be it the good or the bad, I take it all in so that I don't repeat the mistakes and do what's best for myself, partner and our family.

Anyway, there was this particular post that caught my eye. Long story cut short, I feel that one should really do something within their financial status or rather, budget. Giving reasons to go to a European country with your soon to be husband (yeap, note the soon-to-be-husband) for "relaxation" when you are tight on cash? I'm sorry, but I fail to understand the logic nor the sense in that. Shouldn't cash be precious? Wouldn't purchasing furniture more important? Aren't such expensive vacations best experienced when you are lawfully each other's?

Of course, not everyone would share the sentiments as I would and trust me, I'm totally fine with that. I just wished.. People would stop biting off more than they can chew.

I hope I'll never be like that when the time comes.
I hope I'll keep to my personal beliefs a few years down the road.
I hope I'll be able to speak and make my partner's family understand on my views of why I truly want to do the solemnization at X mosque followed by a dinner reception with 21 tables. Deep down, it's pretty much like a fat hope la but you know... We can always exercise. HAHAHA okay nonsense. And once again, I need to stop berangan. K bye. XX

HEHEHE.

In the mean time.. I'd like to share these 3 quotes that strikes me hard in the heart!

1. Just remember to keep the hipsters at bay & the suits at arms length. Surround yourself with real people with big hearts & life is good.
2. My actual goals are to be so successful & independent that I can spoil myself & my family & do what I love & go where I want whenever.
3. Wise are those that learn lessons when things are easy as well. Foolish are those who'd only rather count lessons when things are hard.

Till then, lotsa love from mehhhh! X

Promise to self.

I need to stop berangan because this is all to early to say but one thing's for sure, I'm really excited for what's in for the future. The 5 year plan that I have for myself, family and other half.. I hope it'll all work out to be okay and not too far off from what I've always dream off. From the the period of my graduation, the moving in and renovation of dream space, the type of baju to be worn, that open concept kitchen, the cement vs wood tiles, savings to be untouched till some things are ready, treating the beloved parents to a well deserved x all expenses paid vacation, solemnization at that particular mosque which holds great-special meaning to me/us, breezy alila villa, lovely nights in luxurious riads..
Those are the sneak peeks. Till then, it's hustle time. xx

$$$$

I think I might have done my finance expenditure more than twice monthly and I'm left speechless with the amount I've saved or spent. Hitting a certain target is not easy, especially when you've got bills and school fees to pay for. Of course, most of us in our early twenties are experiencing the same struggle and as much as I feel that my income is not much, I do give thanks to god for it but I always pray for more. A few hundred in raise can do a lot of difference and I'm really hoping for the best from 2015 onwards.

The quote, "hustle now, shine later" is always etched in my mind and if I can have it tattooed, that might be it. Hahaha. Bottom-line of this post is that my account balance makes me wanna cry.

Ps; my exams are in less than a month and I'm freaking hell scared for nobody else but myself.

By far, my bestest set of babes.

Faezah's 27th was celebrated at Fish & Co GlassHouse and we went a lil crazy with the #wefies. Damnn we had a lot of time laughing and talking like bullet train. +++ so happy to see Nurul and Zie with their caramel tanned skin. Which makes me envious and I simply can't wait for my diving trip this October 31st! Hehehe.

 

Met this prettaye B2B to collect my material for the bridesmaid outfit and had a good catchup at Cahaya over claypot x  sotong you char quay my favouriteeeee. Always glad to talk to this teacher of mine! Again, can't wait for the final product of it and I should be sending it to have it tailored by end of next week or this Deepavali! The year is coming to an end, quite a few things gotta be done promptly! 

That necklace belongs to birthday girl but of course I had to sebok-menyebok and "jazz" up my outfit.  I even borrowed Zaimah's? Or was it Nurul's shades? Hahahahaha. If you'd know me better.. The only accessory I own are my pandoras and agnes b earring. Planning to get the swarovski starfish once I'm back from my Tioman trip. I don't care if it's slightly big because after years, there's none that I liked except for the Tiffany's but too ex it's merepek hahahaha.

This was taken on Zie's "surprise" birthday staycation and parties on the bed are always fun ain't it? :D

The only two other girls that are missing from above are Atiqah and Imah and then, it would have been a complete blog post but..... It's been way too long since we last went out together. I miss them like crazy and I wished we had more time to go out and just be crazy butttt time does not permit! :(

My family, girlfriends and other half makes me whole.

 Brought Atiqah out for her birthday lunch at PS Cafe @ Palais Renaissance and was pretty disapointed with my Prawn Aglio Olio because there was barely any spice to it. It lacks the garlic and cili padi like how I like and expected it to. In fact, it was oily. Bummer ain't it? And yes, I know I should have gotten the truffle fries but we had zero interest for that at that point of time. Hahaha.

 I decided to treat the parents to Tiffany's Cafe at Furama just so that I can spend some time with them before Dad did his knee operation and again, the food was nowhere our expectations. I should have brought them to any of the Turkish restaurants at Arab Street lor. Seriously, I/we would be more puas hati. The food wasn't thatttt bad la but the interior could have been improved. I'm shocked as to how the management can allow such tables and chairs still be utilized. :/

Day out with the cousins, was one hell of a crazy yet relaxing! It rained in the late morning to early afternoon and we almost cancelled it for stay at home movie marathon but thank god for some who insist hahahaha. The weather when we reached West Coast Park was perfect. Cool and breezy + the fact that every family had a task to do/bring/cook, made the whole pot luck picnic great! We left for home (our home) to shower, did our Marghrib prayers before purchasing Red Riding Hood from MioTV and continued snacking till it was time for the kiddos to head home. L O V E.

I don't know if it's appropriate to label myself as an OCD person as my work desk is not exactly arranged neatly where my documents and folders are stacked accordingly but I try to clear and keep it mess free, daily. Unless if I end work really late and I know I have tons to do the following day, I will not bother because at 8.30am, work begins full on. BUT my room, has got to be clean and tidy at ALL times. I cannot stand girls with freaking messy rooms. How the hell do you live in a room where your bed is undone, your clothes are lying on the floor, dirty mirrors and rooms where you don't freaking open up the windows for ventilation?! Gross.

Often you will see me blabbering on twitter on how mad I am with my second sister with her not helping out or rather, only helps out when I asked her to. I mean.. Shouldn't all these be done voluntarily already? I get so tired and pissed when constant reminders have to fall on death ears and all she does is watch her One Direction videos on youtube. Like what the effing hell right? To add to that, unfair when they want to borrow my clothes and expects a Yes, all the time + instantaneously. That comes to a point where I pray really hard that Zaki or whoever my lawful husband to be, will be a neat freak or rather have some form of initiative to help me out with keeping things clean. Because guys, I cannot be doing this, alone, for the rest of my life. I might go crazy hahahahaha.