November 29th.

I left for Phuket a day before my birthday and the plan was to meet my family there once they're done with their 4D3N in Bangkok. As much as I was excited, I was feeling anxious or rather, very gelisah for god knows why. I mean, I've been on a plane on my own twice before so... I don't know what kinda emotions settled in me but ya. My Sayang picked me up at around 8ish right after NUS 110 Concert in the Park ended (this is another event altogether and my source of income for the past 3 years 8 months fyi hahaha). In fact that few days prior to 30th November, he's been such a sweetheart fetching, feeding, carrying, whatever la. He did it all and I'm one hell of a lucky lady. I just hope he feels like he's the luckiest man on earth as well. :P

 The card that he bought and had an essay in it, is something that I keep close to my heart. And you know, when someone writes from his/her heart, you can somehow feel it. This goes to their actions as well. He picked that gorgeous pair ("paling lawa kalau you yang pakai") but that other silver ware was what I had the most fun with. It's a musical turn and twist thingy that will play the tune of a 'Happy Birthday' song in the most classical way ever. It was something he got when he was in New Zealand and have been keeping it for the longest time (boy was he excited when he it was November 29th!) before he surprises me with it! I love it. Also, that's the second red box he got me for our special occasion. Will the third red box be it? #ifyouknowwhatimean

Had a quick dinner at Al-Azhar before I head home to do finally packing. Zaki left for his usual midnight soccer match and here comes the scary part. He went to JB right after for petrol x car wash x burger, the usual things he or we do when we have time together butttt there was a slight jam when he's entering back to SG anddddd he fetched me a little late to the airport. Both of us were pretty cool and we could have reached on time if there wasn't a traffic jam (again) at the east side. Thank god he was smart + confident enough and I was a willing risk taker (i'm barely one), to re-route our self in order to avoid the slow moving traffic. Rushed and the moment when we had to part ways, I did so reluctantly but I got out of the car quite fast as I was afraid I would cry. HAHAHA yupp I was bloody emotional. Ps: 3rd day of menses and bleeding heavily. Stupid. So annoying.

+ I didn't have to queue for my boarding pass. I just have to scan my itinerary and passport then voila, boarding pass's printed automatically! That surely saved a lot of time and of course, I had to call him back to ask if he had driven far or still have a chance to park to see me off. #wantedtocrysayinggoodbye #clingyiknow. I had a feeling that he either was driving slowly or actually did a quick u-turn to park at T2? Before he took the sky train and met me beside the famous tear drops of Changi Airport. Anyway, we lingered around for 10mins (KFC had a longgg queue and I was honestly famished but luck wasn't exactly on our side) before it's time for me to rush in. At that very moment, I knew I love this dude too much. Way too much and that's erm.. Scary guise.

Lav lav lav youuu.

I'm just feeling a little nostalgic and thought hey why not take a trip down memory lane + try to kill two birds with one stones and have some parts of my love life documented here before erm.. I forget!

Weirdly right after this, all you guys are gonna see are photos taken when we went to East Coast Park many months ago for our grilled wings + lemon sugar cane juice (obviously not in photos because we we were too hungry!!!) cycling date and seriously, we should have been in PE attire because it was so hot?! Like we were sweating and disgusting but oh wells, you know when people are in love, nothing's all that bad. In fact, nothing's bad and I've been loving this relationship to the max! Hehehehe.

Of course nothing's complete till I get some #OOTD shots in but what you see here is my inner mak nenek versions. 

Basically how Zaki looks like when:

1) Him: "Sayang da lawa laaa. Cepat laaa." 

2) Me: "Sayang do the BJ Kadir pose!" (AND HE LAYANKAN! HAHAHA)

And we took the opportunity to do the infamous shot of.. Yeah you know.. And actually had tons of fun doing so. I was amazed at how cooperative my Sayang was. He genuinely was into it and kept asking me to pose. HAHAHAHA I on the other hand, carik chan la. We did his version too but it all ended way too serious so.. I shall not post them here! Hahahhaha.

Kenape kau handsome?

 I think the above u g l y photos are up and taken by my Sayang simply because after one point of time, all I wanted to do was edit photos and have it uploaded on Instagram! Thus, it probably was his idea of revenge. I think la. For now I'm just assuming hahahaha. But I'm totally fine coz I think the fact that he have seen me sans foundation, is a big deal already (for me at least!) and erm my unwashed hair etc. + I'm always pretty in his eyes HAHAHAHA so, there's really no worries on my side anymore. Though without a doubt, I ain't slacking on my makeup and skincare regime! I mean, no lady should ever slack on keeping yourself beautiful.

XX

Catching up with friends!

 A few weeks back, I went on a meet-up frenzy with 4 different groups of friends who I probably meet for dinner and supper for at least once or twice a year. You may say that that's bad but I honestly felt that arrangement was good enough to catch up on "serious topics". My poly mates since year 1 and after graduating for 3.5 years? We still manage to make time for each other and get our dates right. Once a year to meet up ain't that bad or so I thought.. Hahahaha.
 

 Of course.. Imah, Zaimah and Suefee aren't the ones who I met only once a year. The usual girls we'll meet at least once a month and as for Atiqah, I MEET HER EVERY WEEK AND LOVING IT. Hahahaha in words of my mother, "korang dua lesbian eh?" or "Zaki #2". Oh yeah, sincere apologies for those shameless selfies. I thought my eyebrows were nicely filled in. :P

Trying to keep fit.

A few weeks back or more, we were supposed to trek for the Tree Top Walk but we ended up at Bukit Timah Nature Reserve before we had an okay time eating at Al-Azhar for their Sambal Stingray, Tom Yum Soup and yeah.. You know the drill. Hearty food, what's not to love?! Hehehe. Anyway, we went for our first run together (after 10months official?) at West Coast Park yesterday and I almost died trying to catch up with someone who runs weekly and sometimes more. In which later we had Mcds! HAHAHA. Ps: I love the Spicy Chicken McWrap and cup corn! The only thing we both wanna do is to keep moving and ensure that we don't grow a little too much flesh on our body and yes we are aware that we aren't exactly the kind that would gain weight tremendously but hey, better be safe than sorry? :P

Renny x Syahrul @ Gurame Indonesian Restaurant Changi.

I've always been passionate about events, be it for work or personal matters and when I got the surprise box to be Renny's bridesmaid, I was more than glad to help and be a part of her big day. Before we all know it, that meaningful date (3/01/2015) for Renn and Syahrul came! Pre-event "party" was at Park Avenue Changi and that is where we all began dolling up by two other MUA, Kak Yumi and Kak Fad. I had Kak Yumi to do my hair and make-up! As much as I love it, it was a lil thick for my liking but I supposed that was how things were + we gotta standout a little right? And since it looks so good in photos albeit flash photography, made my face looked fairer than my neck. Boohoo but nehmind, in normal lighting, it was fine! Click here: x and x and herrrre!

 Both solemnization and wedding reception was held at this lovely place, Gurame Indonesian Restaurant at Changi which over looks the sea and has got a garden theme feel to it! It rained for a while when we were getting ready but lucky us, the weather starts to change and it was breezy the whole late afternoon to night time! Alhamdullilah to the fact that Syahrul got to lafaskan that whole sentence thingy on one breathe and brought a hugeeee smile to Kak Renny kita. Hehehe.

Of course, the bridesmaids and another with my Crystal Sisters and out partners! Ps: I weren't too pleased when I saw this photo where Zaki didn't stand close to me! *go ahead and roll your eyes* Basically, I hate to see gaps in group photos la.. Or perhaps it was my OCD acting up orrrrr I just wanted him to stand closer to meh! HAHAHA.

Look at how gorgeous this Renny is laaaaaaa. Hello? Merepek punya lawa can? And nope I'm not being biased or anything like that but she seriously was exceptionally lawa nak mampos. I think I said "Renny kau lawa nye" like more than 10 times? Sorry babe hahahahaha!

 Last but not least, the friendship we all forged, will definitely be remembered for a very long time. How Sheril fetch me from home and after, one whom I felt closest to, speaking like a bullet train and entertaining each other's nonsense, how Shikin was so quiet but was so nice, sweet and helpful all the time, how malam berinai with Haya and Dee was funny coz one lost her voice and the other was actually busy with her own wedding cards hahaha + them influencing me on Running Man, how Izza rants and her whole bimbotic-ness comes to life hahahahaha! and how accommodating and gentleman the maid of honour, Helmi was! Pretty cool to have clicked very well with everyone! Till my next bridesmaid duty. xx

I'm in love and always will be.

Yesterday was our first virgin trip to JB and no words could explain how happy I was throughout the rare weekend date (10hours ++). In fact, I'm so happy being with Zaki that I wanna be with him 24/7 hahahaha. Surely it may be a bit much for some to hear those words but hell, I'm in cloud nine, with or without him. At times it feels like he lives in my heart and my mind.... :P

Whenever I see this phrase "Someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with someone else.", I cannot explain in further details for I agree 100% to it. I'm neither engaged nor married to him, yet, but this overwhelming feeling I have.. Can be quite unbelievable. We are similar in so many things and that's a major thumbs up because I'm so thankful to have found a lover in whom I call my best friend. He's been amazing and all the time spent together have been great thus far. 6 months down and I look forward to forever. ♥

Sleep.

I don't know how to explain the feeling I have right now. It's like too much to handle? The Bridges event is over yesterday and I have another 2 more pending in which it's quiteee a load on my already aching shoulders, literally. NUS 110 is on 1 Feb (i've over 800 rsvp to take care of!) and NUS Open Day (imagine the logistics and calling of secretaries for bla bla and etc) falls on the 14 March. Oh god, typing those two dates down already give me the chills because there really are a lot to be done!!! Ohhh since we are at these dates, I might as well say that my first Group Based Assignment falls on the 8th Feb and TMA01's deadline is on the 22nd Feb. KILL ME ALREADY PLEASE.

I do question myself if the additional commitment that I have now, pose a little obstacle in balancing my schedule.. I mean, I don't dread nor do I not like it. In fact, extra time spent daily is love and I appreciate being fetched and always always always be thankful for having such a kind hearted, loving other half. Ps: I'm madly in love with you, Muhammad Zaki.

Just so you know, the amount of coffee I take daily doesn't really help anymore. Sure, all you need is probably 6 hours of sleep each night but hell, for someone who sleeps regularly by 10pm.. Sleeping in after midnight is extremely draining. Some say that I should probably start "training" for the future but hell no? Sleep is precious. Fucking precious to me and I get easily moody if I don't have enough of it.

Thoughts and gifts.

I unwrapped my gift from my sayang earlier than I was supposed to. As much as I guessed it right when I was in the ferry to Batam, I could only tahan till a few hours before it strike midnight. He did checked/asked me how I feel about owning a GoPro and I told him that it was pretty cool to own one but at the same time, it's too expensive and I don't know how often I'm going to do "extreme" sports. I fear for not making full use of it and I thought he'd just get the not so latest edition because Hero 4 is erm.. Expensive? But guess what, dude went ahead with it! And it didn't stop there, additional 2 Pandora charms was added! Still smiling whenever I see the 'My Princess' tiara charm because ... Unfortunately, the "pet name" he gives me is Kedondong. HAHAHA. So when he says, "You'll always be my princess" cracks me up. Haiz sayang ooo sayang why the hell are you so funny la? This reminds me of the birthday letter he made for me. Freaking A for effort!!! Every single word, was like a reflection of him and us. Sweetest and bestest man I've had in my entire life like-omg. Anyway, I've planned that the bracelet he got for me would basically signify us and it'd be filled with all sorts of charm such as our initials, our favourite hobbies, his favourite color and we'll build it along the way. Ps: It's gonna be an all emerald green theme with occasional white and silver glittery charms. :)

My dearest sister Shahidah bought my gift (FitFlop - The Skinny) like a week before my birthday and she consulted me on the size, colour and pattern before she purchased at TANGS. I can be pretty cerewet if you'd like to know and believe it or not but she got duped into a fake website when she first made purchase for it online. I swear it was hilarious because she had to call POSB to enquire etc and was on a panic mode in the kitchen while I was doing the dishes hahahaha. Thank you for the effort you've put in babe, I know you're pretty much new to major online shopping! Hehehe now I got something to wear on an everyday/weekly basis as my Steve Madden sandals in a bad shape now! <3

Nurul, Sopi, Zie, Faezah, Zaimah and Zie got for me gifts that I totally need. Yes another red lipstick is always welcome right? Gotta love how pigmented and moisturizing it was but sadly, it has almost zero staining power. But I don't care, it's smooth on the lips and the deep red (#showstopper) is something that I've never had! + that pair of earring, gonna be my next statement piece hehehe. Long live Marc by Marc Jacobs! Whereas that perfect blue mini tote from Calvin Klein was from Atiqah and Imah. Cheat sheet: Atiqah asked what I wanted as she was totally out of ideas of what to get for me hahaha. I wanted the same version but in cream and black but that was out of stock. Bummer! Nonetheless, the bag came with 2 roses and a glitter globe.. C'mon how sweet can this Atiqah be you tell me!? Anyway, that's my everyday work bag from then on! :)

Appreciating the good people around me and thankful for all the gifts that they've showered me upon. I feel so lucky. May god bless them all. XOXO.

Agrobazaar Malaysia at Sultan Gate. #belatedbirthdaydinner

Bittersweet memories of this place and one thing's for sure is that I doubt any of us will head back there. I loved the place because of the fairy lights, roof top dining and credits to the presentation of food. But unfortunately, nothing is exactly tasty nor memorable (in terms of food)!

And here are 3 blurry photos of us two because I insist on us switching places simply because I look better on his right.
Cmon man, I am Mrs Always Right. Oh not yet is it? *cues annoying self*

God bless Zaki with much patience to be with Annoying Ashiqin. HAHAHAHA omg I can't believe I had that typed out.
Remember annoying orange? Yeap I can probably be that. :P

 This photo is close to perfect in my eyes.
Just.look.at.it.