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MY HEART IS BURSTING. I CANNOT WAIT TO REVEAL #PROJECTM. 9 MORE DAYS.

Beauty & the Beast - The Musical at MBS

A few days before I left for Kuala Lumpur for an "impromptu" trip with Syaff and Zaimah, I went for my first ever musical with Atiqah and it's none other than Beauty & the Beast at Marina Bay Sands! I'm not too sure if it's Atiqah's company but whenever we are a relatively new place and we're experiencing the situation first hand, we will end up "hiking". That particular day, we both climbed up and down many many stairs in our 5inch platform heels. HAHAHA ya prolly trying to kill ourselves but heyy masih hidup pon kita. :P First up, to get down for our long awaited high tea. I wouldn't recommend TWG as the selection wasn't that interesting but because we wanna be princesses for the day and it's nearest to the musical venue, why not right?

I was pretty much there for the salmon and scones and the chocolate muffins (on the other tray that is) and the smexy tea.
Hahaha and spent close to $40 per person. Mehhh.

One lucky shot from Atiqah and for the record, besides her, my sister - Huda and girlfriend - Zaimah, no one else can take a good photo of me. Quite sad huh? Hahahaha been trying to train Zaki but he barely have patience for it coz I can be instructing for a good 5-10min till correct angle/shot is taken bla bla. Plus, I'm self conscious when he takes over the camera.
I can't smile or "act candid" for god knows why. -_-

Of course more toilet snaps before we kinda got chased out of the place because I think they have some regulations for all to be out of the theater by a certain timing? I don't know man, I'm just assuming! AND PS: I DON'T KNOW HOW ATIQAH CAN WALK IN THOSE AND STILL LOOK GOOD. HAIYO I NEED TO LEARN.

Till then! xx

If I did not have nothing else to give but love, would that even be enough.

If I got locked away and we lost it all today

Tell me honestly would you still love me the same

If I showed you my flaws if I couldn’t be strong

Tell me honestly would you still love me the same

Catching up with friends!

 A few weeks back, I went on a meet-up frenzy with 4 different groups of friends who I probably meet for dinner and supper for at least once or twice a year. You may say that that's bad but I honestly felt that arrangement was good enough to catch up on "serious topics". My poly mates since year 1 and after graduating for 3.5 years? We still manage to make time for each other and get our dates right. Once a year to meet up ain't that bad or so I thought.. Hahahaha.
 

 Of course.. Imah, Zaimah and Suefee aren't the ones who I met only once a year. The usual girls we'll meet at least once a month and as for Atiqah, I MEET HER EVERY WEEK AND LOVING IT. Hahahaha in words of my mother, "korang dua lesbian eh?" or "Zaki #2". Oh yeah, sincere apologies for those shameless selfies. I thought my eyebrows were nicely filled in. :P

Period rants.

I hate it when the the time of the month hits me, monthly. -_-

Besides the fact that my lower back feels like as if it's gonna break any time and the never ending excruciating pain in my tummy, I tend to over think, a lot, at night. Two night ago, I deleted my Instagram off my hand phone because I wanted to"get away" from all things social media. But what the hell right? The first thing that came to mind was, "What a childish move!" but hey, at least it didn't disturb anyone else right?

Anyway, I'm so tempted to hit a women's clinic to do a more thorough check-up but hey, the stuff I've been reading online scares the shit out of me. No way I'm I ever gotta cut a small hole near my belly button to look for stuff. I wished I'm married and attempting for a baby now. Call me crazy but hey, the last thing I ever wanna know is that I'm unable to bear a child. Torturous pain since I was 15, 10 years later to know that I can't conceive? I'll kill myself. No kidding. Been postponing my dream of having a child since I was 21 years old!!! Nope, this is not a joke or some kinda weird ambition. I've always wanted to be a young mom. FYI please.

Ps: Please don't tell me to go and get married ASAP because we both are not financially ready (we would be if we sacrifice our major holiday plans and erm.. My materialistic buys. Yes yes cutting down by a whole lot!) and I doubt we will ever get to do a nikah in that mosque followed by sit down reception for the very close ones. So yeappp don't suggest that please, my heart will ache. Hahahaha.

Singapore to Mount Bromo x Surabaya mini trip! (Part 1)

Long overdue and I've received manyyyy inquiries about this trip I made and I thought I'd help any of your guys along the line of preparing for such. Hope it helps some of you out there! xx

We had a tour guide who picked us up from the airport and then a 3 to 4 hours drive to Java Banana. If I'm not mistaken, it is the most expensive accommodation in Bromo and guess what? I'm not complaining! The place was perfectttt but than you'll be extremely clueless as to what you can do there except to read, eat, drink or chill. Basically, it's a beautiful place for dinner > one night stay > breakfast! With zero heater in the room, I dare say it was freezing at night and my first time in such a cold place.. I think I won't be able to enjoy winter.

 Budi, our tour guide x driver fetched us again at 3am and oh god let me tell youuuu, the drive up to the mountain was BEAUTIFUL. It was pitch dark and when you look out of your 4 by 4.. It was freaking twinkle twinkle little stars. Like those star galaxy that you have as your screensaver, wallpaper, whatever. It's one of those moments that I will remember for life.

Waiting at the peak with tons of others was pretty weird? I mean... They were mainly locals and yet they do this every single morning? Maybe they are super used to the weather and thus they didn't mind. I don't know. Because at that point of time, I just hated the cold oh-so-much. Hahaha. But the again, nobody gives a pass to natural beauty like that.

"Everything you could imagine, was right before your eyes."

x

Trying to keep fit.

A few weeks back or more, we were supposed to trek for the Tree Top Walk but we ended up at Bukit Timah Nature Reserve before we had an okay time eating at Al-Azhar for their Sambal Stingray, Tom Yum Soup and yeah.. You know the drill. Hearty food, what's not to love?! Hehehe. Anyway, we went for our first run together (after 10months official?) at West Coast Park yesterday and I almost died trying to catch up with someone who runs weekly and sometimes more. In which later we had Mcds! HAHAHA. Ps: I love the Spicy Chicken McWrap and cup corn! The only thing we both wanna do is to keep moving and ensure that we don't grow a little too much flesh on our body and yes we are aware that we aren't exactly the kind that would gain weight tremendously but hey, better be safe than sorry? :P

Quarter life crisis?

I am at this particular cross road of my life and I simply want to just drop everything. I don't have the mood or rather, motivation to work anymore and I wanna quit uni. Another 2 years of studying seems like a longgggg way to go and I know that many have been ensuring me that it'll all be worth it in the end. Cmon I already know that but I literally am doing all this against my own "will". If that even makes sense because deep down I know I wanna own and complete a degree. Some may say that a paper certificate will not dictate how you'll live your life but to me, that might just be a basis to what I can build upon. If you get what I mean, good and thank you.

As for work wise, I feel like my partner is not doing as much as I can or would do. I know age is catching up on her but to have the same the job position, I sometimes feel like life is hell unfair. I feel like my income should be higher. Or maybe I'm not thankful enough for what god has somehow or another, given me. I don't know. I just don't feel like working or doing repetitive events yearly. Though I've only been here for 3+ years. And not that the events are boring or what la coz every single year there'll be tweaks and additions to "spice things up" a little. A definite plus point is that most of my colleagues are such nice people and there are so many benefits being in this company.

Haiz I'm in such a freaking dilemma right now and that if I get 3 calls for a chance to "move on", I'll so my solat istiharah and then we'll see how things goes.. Till then, xx.