P L E A S E

Please make me understand why you still had to lie to me when the truth was clearly in your hands.

One day I will.

 I swear I will.

#zies23birthday at La Marelle Café & Boutique.

The one that I can be absolutely retarded with, the one that accepts my flaws, the one that practically knows me inside out. Things may have changed over the years but our friendship never did. Cheers to a decade of celebrating each others birthday and hell yeah there are many more nonsense to come! Till now, I can't believed I've known Zie for 10 years. I always wonder how things are gonna be like in the next 10. 

Scary much? No? Hahaha.

 Decision to dine in at La Marelle was a pretty good one. I honestly find the food just nice.. It didn't leave me with a WOW effect (I still wished they had the Duck Pizza! Would come back for that for sure. However so, it wasn't all that bad la. Portion's good for the ladies, friendly staffs and the atmosphere was just perfect. The Passionfruit Sunrise (the one in the pot) was refreshing and so was the soda that Zaimah had. As for the coffee, I had the Green Tea Cappuccino and it was quite a disappointment to me. I barely tasted any caffeine. :( It was like hot grean tea with an overdose of milk but I gotta give some credit that the drink had a very smooth texture to it!

As for the desserts, I'm all out for the Smores (extremely sinful) and all I can say is that perhaps you can give the macaroons a pass. But if you must, get the Vanilla. It didn't meet my expectations because I compared it to Laduree's. I know, it's unfair but ...
 All that aside, the cafe is definitely worth a visit!

Unhealthy hahaha.

Friends With Benefit.

This type of relationship can get real sticky, real quick, and not in a good way. Friends with benefits is a similar scenario to the booty call, except that this is someone you know through mutual friends or have known for years, so there’s already some sort of connection and feelings involved, even if it was previously just “as friends.” You actually like this person for who they are, but for whatever reason, having a relationship just isn’t in the cards.

You have to be careful because you don’t want to hurt this person and things could get awkward if it ends, as you still hang in the same social circle. If it’s a childhood or family friend, then you’re really in for it when it ends. Relationships like these never last because one person becomes more emotionally invested than the other, and all hell breaks loose.

Because there’s always two people involved, the risk of hurting someone or you getting hurt are always high – whether the relationship is purely physical or romantic in nature. In my experience, you have to like someone at least a little bit in order to have a good, lasting physical relationship with that person. I certainly can’t have sex with someone on a continual basis who can’t make me laugh or stimulate my mind in some way. That’s what makes sex great and pleasurable. It’s the connection, not just the physical act.

When you have no expectations, you have no disappointments. If you can go into a relationship with a switch to turn your feelings on and off, then you’ve won half the battle. Some might think that’s cold and heartless, but you either have to protect yourself or that other person, and trust me when I say, that other person isn’t looking out for anyone but their self.

People leave each other. But do they return?

I couldn't apprehend the things that happens to me on a daily basis. At times, I question myself before I head to bed and the next morning, those thoughts still lingers. I don't know if these are supposed to be normal to all independent young adults who's trying to survive in this world where almost everything is a competition. Hahaha feels weird to say "independent young adults" especially when I'm 3 months away to turning a year younger. Btw, I'm forever young in my own bubble though my actions might sometimes differ. :P

I guess one of my problem is that I forgive too easily and that people around me just take advantage of that because they know that at the end of the day they'll still have me. I'm not staying that that notion is wrong. It is absolutely true, unfortunate or not. They are reasons why some are always in your life. They are reasons why some comes and right when they have a stake in your heart, they'll leave. They are reasons why some never did make it to the gates.

I wished I can schedule myself an appointment with god and ask him everything and anything I'd like to know. Sure you may tell me to pray and I do (quite faithfully I may add) but my prayers aren't making things obvious for me. Or perhaps I'm just turning a blind eye because I "want things to turn out my way"?

"Allah gives us gifts, but then we come to love them as we should only love Him. We take those gifts and inject them into our hearts, until they take over. Soon we cannot live without them. Every waking moment is spent in contemplation of them, in submission and worship to them. The mind and the heart that was created by Allah, for Allah, becomes the property of someone or something else. And then the fear comes. The fear of loss begins to cripple us. The gift—that should have remained in our hands—takes over our heart, so the fear of losing it consumes us. Soon, what was once a gift becomes a weapon of torture and a prison of our own making. How can we be freed of this? At times, in His infinite mercy, Allah frees us…by taking it away."

Be right back love.

" A friend's words on Leap of Faith.

"Why do you stay in a prison when the door is so wide open? "

It is when you take a chance. Chance on not just being happy but more of being ecstatic. Yes there are risks and these risks can be terrifying. I feel the most difficult is trusting in your own ability and strength to handle the consequences.

But personally, I want to rake chances. I dream of making big changes. Because while it's scary to leave what is safe, its even more frightening to contemplate a life unfulfilled.

Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase.

Faith is like a blind man believing in the sun, not because he can see him, but because he can feel.

Feel, go with your heart. "

Confession.

I hardly get jealous and it's not easy for me to feel nor for one to make me feel that way but when I was scrolling my Instagram.. There's this particular girl that receives roses and love letters quite frequently from her partner. Not that I like roses that much. Peonies, tulips and lilies over roses please. Then of course, I assume that roses are just way more easier to purchase? I don't know.

Honestly, I find that move extremely cheesy (the whole roses and love letters thingy) and I cannot see myself in that situation BUT for a minute (or two) I felt the pinch. #1 question is, why the hell do I feel even feel this pinch in my heart? Ps: Yes I'm happy that she receives such things and it does give me hope that they are still gentlemen out there.

Oh ya, it doesn't help that she has got a huge rock on her perfectly manicured fingers either. Haha.

Color Run SG 2013.

I HAD CRAZY FUN TIMES WITH THE BABES. IT WAS LIKE RUNNING AND PARTYING AT THE SAME TIME HAHAHA.

DON'T JUDGE PLEASE. NEXT UP, ELECTRIC RUN. CANNOT WAIT! WOOHOO.