Food > Sappy-ness > Sadness > Pointless. Haha.

I know it's only 9.30AM but I really really want to eat Nasi Ambeng. You know.. Just plain white rice with well cooked rendang, sambal paru and sambal sotong. Not forgetting, the sayur lemak and perhaps ulam raja at the side. Wah damn I'm craving for it so so so badly and I don't think I'd get to eat those any time soon. I'm ohhhhh so saddddd. :(

Some would call me crazy and I ain't gonna deny.

I'm getting the Marc Jacobs Mini Jorie replaced by end of next year with one of this gorgeous piece, I promise.

In snippets.

Rochester Park with Caiyi for a quick-simple-very-little dinner. I had the Beef Lasagne which basically tasted like crap because it was so mushy-soggy and there isn't much flavour to it. But what can you expect from a $10.90 basic lasagne and that's pretty much "instant"? It can never and will never taste as good as those that I'm able to whip up at home. Plus, my first take on the Green Tea Frap received a negative comment from me. It's way too sweet for my liking. So much for trying to be adventurous. Haha. From now, I shall stick to my Mocha Chip or Java Cream Chip.

 

I love the fabric of the dress that I wore last Friday to Harry Potter x Andy Warhol exhibition. I wished all of you out there are able to touch and feel it. Lol. I'm SO loving it! Especially the cutting. Anyway, I wouldn't say that both exhibition was a must to see but it was definitely worth going for. I mean, it was not thattt bad. But if you were to compare it to the Titanics, I'd prefer Titanics much more. I left the Arts Museum at MBS with a $40 Gryffindor scarf. Hahaha. (Planning to wrap it around my neck if Bandung weather in December permits.) Almost bought the deep blue and pretty heavy pen but I decided to give it some thought and.. I shall get my friend's friend to get it for me! Ps; I only took noticed of it when I had to sign on the receipt. If it wasn't for that...

What I Wore For Raya.

The deep pink outfit was tailored to fit my petite body and as much as I don't like the tailor because she was not that good, I was glad mine turned out a-okay at the end of day. Something that I'm very much thankful for. As for the second outfit, it's basically my mom's top a few years ago. Alright I wouldn't say it's a few years, it's like at least 5-7 years ago? and it's still in perfect condition. This is what happens when you get material of good quality, it lasts and when sent for tailoring, the aftermath is forever satisfying. The bottom skirt, is Dad's songket which he got eons ago and because Mom took good care of it while washing, it looks brand new as ever. Didn't know those two would pair up beautifully. I hope this doesn't come across as thick-skinned but, I loved how I looked last Saturday.

I call Yusuf, the cranky boy because it's so hard to get him to smile!!! But I don't really care. I just grab him, put him on my lap and continue taking pictures till I'm happy with it. HAHA. The best part was, he doesn't even cry! He just.. Let me be and lean on me like there's nothing wrong. Sometimes I wonder if he thinks his Kak Long Shiqin is abit of a nut case or not. Lol. Haizzz I love him la. And there's another photo of my lipstains all over his face. HAHAHA. But I shan't post it here. If you guys wanna see, follow me on Instagram. :P

Those two boys are my distant cousin but we grew closer after a few holidays and we followed each other on Twitter. Haha yes the kiddos knows what I'm doing and who I hang out with and so on.. Too cute to be true and I loveeee disturbing them. Next up, is @sidora's house aka my neighbour aka my makcik ngaji house. Their cookies and cakes are to die for! I don't have a favourite when I'm at their place for Raya visiting simply because everything, yes everything is good!

A little something to think about: 

Work hard for what you want. Anything that comes easy and free is a bonus and a blessing, but never a right. Nobody is obliged to be nice or good to you so be extremely appreciative even if it is a simple act of kindness.

Blood is thicker than water.

There is just gonna be too many parts to the Syawal entry that I really don't know how to break it up. I thought of doing 3 parts to it and just do a mini major highlights on the days that I went out visiting. How's that sound? Mehh we'll see how things goes. I can be a tad lazy.. Hehe. Anyway, it's 10 in the morning on a dull Monday. In fact, every Monday is dull/boring +++ Why can't the weekends be longer righttt? Yeah pretty sure everyone asked that at some point on time in their lifesss. And yessss.. I have 1 pending post about the OCC Liptars that I got from bellabox.com and till now, I still haven't got the time to take proper photos of do swatches for them. :( Wah I promise I'll get it done and over with before the end of this month! For now, allow me to spam photos..

“This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.”

 "Call it a clan, call it a network, call it a tribe, call it a family. Whatever you call it, whoever you are, you need one." There are more crazy shots but because there's just too many, I decided to just pick the "best" though honestly, all ARE the best and there sure as hell is story behind each photo taken. I'm closer to my mom's side of the family, thus major spam of their faces as such to my paternal side and below, are my 2 favourite cousins from le Dad's. The rest, I pretty much can't be bothered because they seem to have gold in their mouth. No pun, intended. :)

My parents, are the main reason why I'm alive and still am, breathing. I can't emphasize enough on how much they meant to me. There's just this overwhelming feeling of always wanting to repay them back, to give them a good life and so on.. I feel like I owe them alot. Sometimes I feel like I owe them my life.

Of Prada dreams part 1.

1/3 of my current income but I might.. Someday.

25 Things I’ve Learned In My 20s.

I know I'm only 21 going on 22 but this, this is worth a read.

• You can’t date a jerk and expect to turn them into a good person. Jerks are fully committed to being unpleasant. Those brief moments of tenderness they give you are designed to trip you up and give you false hope. It’s best to stay away altogether.

• The rumors are true: your metabolism does slow down as you get older! That means if you’re still eating whatever you want, there’s a good chance you’ll start to gain an awkward amount of weight. It won’t be too drastic but your clothes will start to hang differently on your body and you’ll feel an overall feeling of unattractiveness. Start to be conscious of what you eat and strive to live a healthier lifestyle if you want to get your teen body back. (Let’s be real though, that might not ever come back.)

• You’re going to lose touch with a lot of your friends. With some people, it will be expected but with others it will feel like a punch to the stomach. No friendship is truly safe in your twenties. You’re undergoing so many personal and professional changes that there’s bound to be some casualties along the way. Don’t worry though. You’ll end up with the ones that matter. If someone’s no longer in your life, it’s for a reason.

• You’ll be jealous of everyone who’s more successful than you. That’s okay. Just transfer that jealousy into something productive, like working really hard so you can one day eclipse them and make them feel jealous of YOU.

• You’ll question every decision you make and never feel completely certain that you made the right choice. It’s pointless to wonder though. You’re here now so you might as well make it be the right decision.

• You’re going to give your heart to a few people who don’t deserve it. Then, one day you’ll come to your senses and ask them to give it back.

• You’ll see your parents get older. You’ll come home during Christmas break and see new lines developing on their faces. One day it’ll just hit you that your parents are old and going to die. There’s nothing you can do about it, besides treat them with kindness and visit as much as your budget permits.

• You’ll have a boss who makes you feel like you’re nothing. It doesn’t have to be in a Devil Wears Prada way. The cruelty can be much more subtle. Don’t let them get to you though. They have no idea who the hell you really are and you’re probably going to have their job someday so…

• Doing drugs is fun until it’s not, until it starts affecting your life in negative ways and leaves you feeling guilty and wrecked. If that happens, you should stop doing them.

• You’re going to puke in public. It’s fine. No one cares. Just puke.

• You’ll know how to make twenty dollars last an entire week because you spent almost all of your paycheck on groceries at Whole Foods and drunk cab rides. This lesson in frugality will serve you well.

• You’re going to betray your convictions. You’re going to feel shame. You’re going to continue to put yourself in situations that aren’t good for you. And then, slowly but surely, it will become less frequent. It might not ever go away completely but it won’t be as bad. In the meantime, stop shame spiraling about it. It gets you nowhere.

• Loving yourself is hard. Hating yourself is harder.

• You’re going to hook up with someone who you would never touch in the daylight sober. Just don’t freak out too much about it. Consider it to be your good deed for the day.

• You’re going to have people in your life who are toxic. They may say that they love you, they may say that they have your back, but they don’t. Get rid of them.

• You’ll have moments with someone that are so intense, it’ll feel like you’ve been electrocuted back to life. You’ll hold on to these moments for a long time. They’ll give you hope when you’re going through the motions.

• You’ll always care about your first love. That doesn’t make you crazy, it just makes you human. When relationships end, it’s not so cut and dry. You carry everyone you’ve ever loved into every relationship thereafter.

• You’ll enter your twenties as a fashion disaster and (hopefully) leave them looking fantastic. If you don’t know how to put yourself together by then, I really don’t know what to tell you.

• You’ll realize that the Internet can be a cruel son of a bitch but, you know, www.whatever.com.

• So much of what you think matters doesn’t actually matter at all. It’s kind of rude. Like, thanks for making me believe in things that are ultimately so inconsequential, you jerk.

• You’ll treat someone terribly. Whether it to be a lover or your friend, there’ll be someone whose feelings you take for granted. We focus too much on whether or not someone is hurting us. The reality is that we might actually be the one who’s hurting someone.

• Doing “grown-up things” doesn’t make you a grown up. Shopping for housewares, buying a plant, embracing domesticity — these things don’t create maturity. If you’re still a baby who hasn’t figured things out, you’ll remain a baby, no matter how many times you pay your rent on time.

• Don’t force yourself into loving anyone. If it’s not working in the beginning, it’s probably not going to work ever.

• You are so lucky to have everything that you have. Stop crying about an unreturned text message and get some perspective.

• Don’t go too long without having sex. Ever. 

They say "time heals" but I'd like to ask "how long?".

Till then, have a good weekend lovelies. May god bless you beautiful people out there with lotsa happiness, good health and those who can still receive green packets, more $$$ for you! Aahh I wonder if I'll get any this year but never mind that. One thing's for sure, I'm giving out duit zakat to my parents, sisters and cousins. My first year doing so, bismillah.

Office of Corporate Relations.

I've been with them for a quarter of a year. Fast huh? And the University Awards (UA) was my first event.

Those two photos above are taken together with the whole of Corporate Events team (director, deputy heads, managers, executives and MAOs) and the ones below are together with out Student Ambassadors that helped us during our events!

Work may look all cool, calm and collected but no one really knows how crazy it is behind the scene. Fun, yes. Tiring, yes also! Anyway, let me take back my words, it's not 'look all cool', we ARE a whole bunch of cool people! :P

I don't know which is more devastating.

The fact that I came across of a photo and tweets that the guy I was into to, was going out with someone else or the fact that my dear sister is straying away from the family, wanting to be left alone and thinking we are pushing her away?

30th November.

With 22 candles please.

This makes perfect sense now.

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now
I heard that your dreams came true
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me, it isn't over

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
Don't forget me, I begged, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

From within.

 It's gonna take one hell of a man to get through or pass it. One that would care to even bother. One that might not even exist.

I can't help but agree.

This I confess.

6 things you shouldn't give up on.

1. Having a job you enjoy.

And it’s important to note that this doesn’t necessarily mean career. If building a demanding, complex career around which to base your definition of success and most of your time isn’t for you — that’s awesome! We live under this collective delusion that we are defined entirely by the job we do, which is an absurd notion. If you are happy doing a job that leaves you a lot of time and no stress for the rest of your endeavors, you should feel no shame in doing it. As much as someone shouldn’t toil in a service job if they dream of doing something with a corner office, someone shouldn’t feel chained to a cubicle if they long to have the freedom to get up and go when they so choose. The point is that we shouldn’t resign ourselves to making a living where we feel trapped or consumed by the job we’re doing, and we certainly shouldn’t let others tell us what it is that we should be doing, at any age. Whatever makes us happiest spending our working hours, we should do. After all, when the alarm goes off — it’s you who has to actually get up and go to work.

 

2. Being loved.

While there is no guarantee that you are just going to wake up one day and find your soulmate in the produce section of your grocery store, the idea that you should ever quit the entire game of loving and being loved because it hasn’t worked out yet is awful. Sure, the media may tell us that women fall off of some invisible cliff at the age of 30, after which they are wholly unloveable, but we all know that’s bullshit. Aside from there being many kinds of love outside of the romantic kind — all of which are wonderful and highly worth our time, if underrated — there is no expiration date on the kind of enjoyment we can find from being kind and loving to others and receiving that kindness in return. Love doesn’t have to be some blonde man in armor riding up on a white horse to take you off to the wedding registry at Neiman Marcus, but it does have to be something you’re open to.

 

3. Maintaining a nice environment.

I am the last person to be harping on someone about complete and utter cleanliness — I once left a pile of clean clothes on my couch and just kind of lived “around” them for so long that I had to re-wash them before I could put them away — but keeping things at least minimally organized certainly does help. As I’ve become progressively cleaner and cleaner, I’ve noticed that life has become unequivocally better. With an uncluttered desk, made bed, organized closet, and well-arranged cupboard, life just sails along so smoothly. Everything from your workspace to your bedroom is vastly improved with just a small amount of touching-up each day. And the funny thing is, with a little organization once daily, you’ll almost never have to “clean” again. At least, not “cleaning,” in that dreadful, I’m-going-to-have-to-dedicate-a-full-day-to-dusting-alone kind of way. It’s shocking how much better the world immediately seems when your drawers are neatly arranged by type of clothing.

 

4. Keeping good friends.

As we have to be ready for love — romantic and otherwise — we have to always be vigilant never to take friends for granted. Just because they are a constant in your life, and you (usually) don’t have sex with them, doesn’t mean they’re not people you should consider precious and worth your effort. And a friend who is not treating you well — one who makes you feel like they’re doing you a favor by deigning to hang out with you — is not a friend at all. They’re someone you need to get rid of immediately, just as you would an emotionally unfulfilling relationship. While we can often allow behavior (both on our part and those of our friends) in platonic relationships that we wouldn’t in romantic ones, it doesn’t mean that they can be any less damaging. A good friend is a precious thing, and must be taken care of on both sides.

 

5. Your body.

Whatever you feel comfortable in, body-wise, you shouldn’t be giving up on. If you feel good at a size two, eight, 16 — whatever. As long as you’re healthy and taking care of yourself (and not just lying to yourself about it), no one should stop you from looking the way you want to. No matter how much you may dislike what you see when you catch yourself in an unflattering angle in some mirror, it doesn’t mean that’s suddenly the end of your quest to be confident. And though we are all struggling with how we look and feel, everyday, and no one (no matter what they’re trying to sell), has the secrets to perfection, it doesn’t mean it’s something we can’t always be working on. We can always eat a bit healthier, be a bit more active, take a bit better care of our skin, and love ourselves a little more. But doing one without the other, or imagining that we’re going to suddenly will ourselves into a shape or size that will magically make every other problem disappear, is a dead-end. Loving and being okay with your body is a constant uphill battle, but one that is never not worth the fight.

 

6. Personal Change.

Whatever the goal is, no matter how far-fetched or inconveniently located it may seem, if it is something that makes us feel alive, we should be following it. Maybe it won’t perfectly take the form we’ve always imagined in our daydreams, and maybe it won’t happen on the timetable we would have chosen, but that doesn’t mean it’s not worth moving towards every day. Even if you think that big move, or the dream career, or the house on the beach, or the championship trophy is something that you aren’t good enough for, why would you stop yourself from even trying? Why would you rather have the regret of sitting down and saying “I can’t,” rather than actively changing the things you do control and taking active steps towards what you want? We often forget that our big moments and successes are achieved in small increments — little steps that can seem almost unrelated to the bigger picture — and that is such a shame. Why is saving a dollar today that could allow you to fly to Rome tomorrow, or doing an online course this semester that will one day lead to your doctorate, not as much a cause for celebration as the end-goal itself? There is never a point at which we can no longer change, improve, or shape ourselves into what we desire. And the day you decide that your dreams are something that you’ll actively work on every day, you’ll know that every foot you’re placing is, at the very least, in the right direction.

Watermelon Redbull on Ice.

Prior to this, I had my nails and hair done but it isn't in the G12 because I used the 4s all the way. I'd blogged about the "pampering" stuffs another day la hor coz right now, I'm very sleepy already. Dinner's @ Nasrin.

Shish Touke, mine!

Minced Chicken with Butter Rice thingy was Atiqah's!

Michael's Grilled Chicken with Wedges!

My Thursdate! <3

We spent like 2 hours dining in at Level 2 before we go down to sheesha. During that 2 hours, Satsuke Singapore entertained us like nobody's business. I must say that those contestants are brave to try out for such things because I might not. It's just embarrassing but at the same time, atleast you'd know how far you're able to go. Like a test for yourself kinda thing you know? 

 

If you're wondering what's up with the title of this post, it's actually the flavour of the night! Oh and btw, I'm kental when it comes to sheesha-ing. I get dizzy wayyy to easily. -_-  It has always been the case ever since I first. Double -_-. Okay la that's all for now. I need my zzzz already! Nights. ;)