"I keep myself busy with things I do, but everytime I pause, I still think of you."

This CNY holiday surely came as a breather for me. Uni assignment's been piling up and work's catching up as well. I mean.. What's new right? My life is supposed to be like for the next 3 years or so. I hope I have the strength to carry on till then because it's been barely 6 months (of uni) and I feel so irritatedly-tired with the amount of workload I have to deal with everyday. What's worse is I gotta work for the next 40 years of my life or so. Unless.. I'm lucky enough to marry a loving-responsible man whom can support me well and I can be a tai-tai at the age of 40 or something. Hahaha me and never ending berangan aka unrealistic dreams.

Standard of living in Singapore are crazier by the day and I don't think there's a way for only one parent to be working except if one's monthly income could hit a minumum of 5k/month. Then the other parent can take a "break" and take care of the household duties. Fyi, I don't like the idea of having a helper. In fact, I'd rather do all the cooking + cleaning myself and honestly, I enjoy doing so la. All that sweat is like chicken mcnuggets to me. HAHA. As much as "anything for the hubby and kiddos", I'd want to be pampered and loved 24/7 too! C'mon who doesn't?

Others need to know that I've thought long and hard before I made the decision to pay Dr Angela at Derma Rx a visit. I am fully aware of the amount of money I'm bound to spend because I've done tons or research on them. I've saved and I used nobody's money except for mine. No regrets on my end because I want (desperately) a better complexion and nothing less. If these products doesn't work, I'd prolly stop and take it that my skin/blood/hormones are just acne-prone. Like.. Just my luck that the pimples/scars love me too much till the the don't want to leave my face. Haha. Anyway, I plan to make a comparison or rather, a short review between Tabitha Skincare and Derma Rx very soon (gimme me like 3 weeks for me to do a review for Derma Rx? Tabitha might be up next week or so) as I believe that good things should be shared and I will, just pray hard that I'll have the time to blog about it.

xx

There's nothing like us, there's nothing like you and me. Guess that this is meant to be. Tell me was it worth it?

We all smile and fake our way through.

#justsaying.

If you don't see the need to constantly improve on yourself, that's very well your own problem. Don't come here to compare, bitch, gossip or complain. Thanks.

If you don't make an effort to keep the friendship/relationship going, then what makes you think the other side will fight for it? Honestly, I know who bothers and who doesn't. This comes from personal experience if you'd ever ask and if you think you're better off without me/us, sure.

If you don't like / don't agree / unhappy with something, say. If you have better opinions or suggestions, say. Or.. I'll have the last say and I don't think you'll like it. Right?

Melancholy.

I didn’t know it’s going to be this tough, I really don’t.

Submission of my first core module is due in exactly 9 days. I’ve yet to really start on it and it’s scaring me. Sure you may say that procrastination is at its best and  without a doubt I know that it’ll bring me nowhere if I were to continue doing so. Haiz I just feel so tired when the clock strikes 6 and worse at 8 (the time when I usually am done with my bathe and dinner).

And as I typed all this out, I’m feeling all lemau aka weak and breathless. This whole feeling just sucks and I hope it’ll go away soon. I should perhaps listen to mom and eat some kind of vitamins. But I hate doing so. I feel like normal meals which I don’t skip at all, is sufficient enough. Okay, I hardly have any breakfast but my lunch and dinner is always carbo and fibre loaded which I think it's good enough. Keyword: think.

I hope this stupid feeling will go away once my period comes. Ps; I am always emo-ing a week before THE week happens. Sucks to be me.

Hit X if you don't like whiny people.

I can't stand how I always miss the 0745 buses. I can either take 947, which goes straight to the interchange or take 187/985 and alight at the busstop opposite before climbing the overhead bridge (that's prolly th eonly exercise I've done for the past 1 month +). Therefore a total of 3 buses all gone and I have to wait for another 10 mins for the next set to come along. ZZZ.

 Trains are a bitch and it's a norm to miss one before you're able to get on another. It also doesn't help when some choose to not freaking shower in the morning. Oh please cut that bull about "I showered last night and slept in an aircon room = I don't perspire and am not dirty". F U k. Never bathe in the morning means never bathe. Disgusting assholes.

And the minute when I reach Kent Ridge, situation worsen. Especially when the semester break ends which automatically means more students and that results in crowded 'A' bus (internal campus shuttle bus)! At times, I couldn't fit into 2 buses and therefore, late for work. Damn right I'm pissed for taking close to an hour fifteen instead of 45mins max just to get from home (bbatok) to work (university hall).

It just doesn't end there.. I do all that every Monday to Friday, twice a day. FML.

Shoot me.

Since I have the time and time is very much precious, here's a few more things for you guys to read/see!

It was pure luck that I got the free ticket and what's crazy was that I didn't know or rather, didn't care for the fact that they are only issuing 1 ticket each. I would have gone alone and have one more to strike off the bucket list (to watch a movie alone) but, I had great company with me. That's one of my colleague at L5 and she's really cool to be with. Like an elder sister to me! :)

As usual, when you're with me.. I'll be so tak tau malu and get you to help me click a few #ootd shots. Hahaha. And let me inform you that I look nothing like that It's just the whole photo edits that made it slightly pleasing to the eyes. 1) I barely had any make-up. 2) I just anyhow pair up my 4 year old dress and GUESS hoodie. Bless my soul that some people thing I look good. :P

Ps: That's the morning before I went back home and got ready for Ungu Band!

I think I look damn chio here la. HAHAHA. All thanks to concealer, proper make-up and must have lipstick! Oh yaaaa, not forgetting photo edits again! Hahaha.

I've been researching for the bag that's good for both school and work.. Then this came while I was browsing through Reebonz.com! You have no idea how fast my heart was pumping before I clicked on 'Confirm Order' and I was ranting to Ai Ai about it. Before I knew it and less than 15 mins, purchase was made! 

 I have ZERO regrets on it. ZERO. I'm madly in love, head over heels +++ with the colour, texture and the overall look of it. This, was my biggest splurge of the year (and it's only the start of the year. Hahaha) we'll see what happens in December.

 My angry bird cranky boy came last night and he always bo-layan me. But guess what? I don't care! Hahaha I will still chase him around the house, carry him till he stare at me + giving me the weird look aka frowning hahaha and at times, I do make him cry when I suffocate him with kisses! HAHA. 

He's too cute la and I cannot tahan but to do all those. Sorry people. 

I cannot wait to give my body a good scrub and spam the delicious body butter! It smells so good I'm very sure I'm lickable. HAHA. Aside from that, I hope the Airbrush FX Face Primer would do my face some justice. I've got stupid huge pores and I need some saving.

Ungu, Terbaik Untukmu.

Yeah sure as hell that it's been a while since I last updated but I've really lost all drive to continue to do so. But nonetheless, I can't afford to allow the blog to be stale. And ps; I have quite alot of things that I'd like to rant out but shall do it on a separate post because for now, it's to show my love for the latest concert I went to. 

First and foremost, I'm a lil pissed for being too honest because then I wasn't able to get good shots of my favourite artist. I really shouldn't have surrendered G12 and have it locked in one of the lockers at Esplanade. To come to think of it, it was such a serious waste and the only thing that can comfort me is the memories that I had and will have for the rest of my life, unless I have dementia or something.

Met Nurul first and later Zaimah (poor girl was too rushing straight from work).

 What girls do best. Time check: 11pm++ Place: Fullerton Hotel.

Fullerton's one the few hotels I've yet to stay in. Hopefully when I do, I'll bring mom along! She's been wanting to go there for the longest period of time. Oh well, kalau ade rezeki, we will! :)

 Ended the night with a small treat for the girls! Nothing can go wrong with supper at Lau Pa Sat. Especially the usual orders like Seafood Tom Yum, Beef and Chicken Satay, Fried Baby Squid, Grilled Prawns and Sambal Stingray!

I hope me and family would be able to find the time to dine out together instead of the usual home cooked food aka mom's cooking. Not that it's bad, in fact mom's cooking is da best in the world! But it'll be a nice treat for all and atleast I can strike off one from my to-do-with-bonus-list! xx

Before I end this post,

All of you need to know that I'm madly in love with Pasha because

1. He's extremely good looking-cute on stage.
2. Hell yeah funny and was able to work the audience in singing together with him.
3. He wasn't "selfish" and got the rest of his team members to sing a few songs. And by the end of the show, all of them sang atleast, 1 song!

Ps: I kept going  "Omg he's so cute" through out the 2 hour show and I don't care if my girlfriends complained (though they didn't!) and I honestly, thank god they didn't. Hahahaha.

One at 5pm.

If you've been living under the rocks (haha), I've started my part-time degree in UniSIM and the course that I'm taking is Facilities and Events Management. Ps; I really hope people would stop asking me what I'm majoring in because I feel like as if I've talked about this 1001 time and I'm sick/tired of it. :(

Taking 3 modules for the first semester because I'm afraid to overload myself, especially when work can be abit too much at times. In fact, with the upcoming NUS Open Day and University Awards, I've been clocking in extra hours and as much as I'll be earning a lil more, it's definitely taking a toll on my small brain and pathetic body. I do wish I get a lil skinnier or something. Heheh.

It's been close to a month since I last ran and I feel extra flabby. My arms are getting chunkier and so are my thighs. Oh wells, I maybe I'm just being plain paranoid right now. Ps; Stupid menses is otw pretty soon. And how I'd know? Craving for standard things such as bubble teas, sushi platter, peanut rice balls. Soon, my back is going to hurt and then... Tadah! Bloody hell blood I hate you so much!

"Sometimes you hit a wall when you were expecting a door."

Amidst the fact that work has really start to kick in for me, uni will be starting very soon too and no kidding that I'm anticipating both with open arms. Haha. I mean, it's either I do this now or later so might as well start early, start while I've yet to have any real commitments. I hope to give my full attention to learn more and faster when it comes to work and to revise everyday before I fall asleep. I don't know if I'm going to turn those words into actions but I'm very sure I'll try my best. 

Ain't gonna think too much about failure (ps; need to be hell-yeah-positive) and not being able to run the events smoothly for this is my first year in doing all things. Mistakes may be inevitable but I wanna learn and make that one hell of a lesson. Though that being said, I hope no major faults happen. #prayforshiqin

All that aside..

• Student Ambassador Recruitment from the 16th to 18 Jan. Am so gonna be damn tired managing the registration table, students who'll be doing the data entry, might need to interview if they are shorthanded. That's not all, I only am clocking off at 7.30pm.

• SWEDISH HOUSE MAFIA on the 17th! I applied PM Leave just for this because I want some time to prepare and look extra good! Hahaha. Anyone at the FREE STANDING area? Holla me! Then perhaps we can party the night away, together.

• Free ticket to PARENTAL GUIDANCE, 19th MORNING @ 10.15AM! Hahaha what a timing. Good news is that I'm going with my colleague at L5! Thank god she checked her email and asked me if I'm going with anyone because I'm not! Ps; I thought we were given a pair of tickets but noooo, just 1. That's all. Zzz. NUS has got too many staffs uh. 

• UNGU BAND, 19th EVENING @ 8.30PM! AHHHHH thank god Zaimah wanted to come along. If not, a ticket will be wasted because I accidentally bought extra 1 as I thought Syaff's bf will be joining. And smarty me, didn't check the amount that was transferred. Just straight away buy onlyyyy.

Haha okay la that's all for today. xx

To be continued..

I received some good news on Monday morning and I was so happy that I said a little prayer in my heart thanking god for giving me the extra moolahs. I've got lotsa plans as to what I wanna do with it but half of me wants to just save it and wait till the time is right. And we all know how thin the line can be when it comes to me, saving and the whole, "when the time is right" can be. Nonetheless, one thing's for sure is 3/4 will go straight to #fundsfordegree and I detest the whole idea of even doing so but I’ve got no choice. I hope whatever I’m left with will allow me to get a new bag for work or if my watch can’t be saved, it’s gonna be a new watch then? IDK and I don’t want to either. Spent close to $300 on the Mini Jorie and to wear it for just a year and such things had to happen? Unjustifiable. I won’t say that the watch was not well made la. But maybe I’ve been a lil to rough with it. Wore it almost everywhere and I admit that I’ve knocked it around or even, threw it around couple of time. Not on hard surface though. Just in my bag or the bed. If I ever wanna get a new watch... Hmm the amount could fund me for at least 3 nights worth of stay in ....

That aside, I hope my not-so-mini tour at the end of year would happen. I don’t know how I’m gonna again, save, such a huge sum but I’ll.. Try. To travel is my main priority and don't you dare forget that. :P

The only dreams that matter are the ones that you have when you're awake.

Disclaimer: Photo taken when I was 19 and now I'm.. 22.

 

2013 is gonna be good and I'm gonna make sure I make it good. I can't be bothered with those who don't bother about me. Be it friends or family. It's different now, I'm different. No more Nice Miss Shiqin anymore.

Say whatever you want, my happiness comes first.

Not in order.

As days goes by, I'm getting lazier to update this space. I see no point because mostly can be found in either my Twitter and Instagram. In fact, I'm trying to work out the codes to have my Instags at the top of the blog so there will always be updated infos +++ But again, who's here? Zzz.

Short dinner with Aini and she got me that as a belated 22nd gift and I'm loving it!

Spent a bomb in Sephora and Royce for Chistmas gifts for the colleagues!

Met the STC babes on 2 separate occasions for dinner and 2012 was memorable because we met twice and not our usual once a year reunion dinner! Hahaha. 

Impromptu lunch at Tong Seng for Fried Fish Soup and later at Starbucks for my Cocoa Cappuccino!

I may have went to bed with a smile on my face, especially with the new long sleeve pyjamas from La Senza that's btw not only are they leopard prints but they are also freaking softttt, I woke up feeling extremely lonely. But I ain't gonna dwell on that because I'm sick and tired of feeling that way. 

Bandung Visuals Day 2 Part 2.

Just imagine driving the way up to the famous Tangkuban Perahu and you are welcomed with such gorgeous looking flowers. They are called, Bunga Trumpet if you'd like to know.

We didn't get to stay for long because 1) It was cold. Approx around 15-18 degrees? 2) We all knew it was going to be cold but we totally forgot about bring our hoodies! My sisters and I even went to the extend of purchasing new ones the day before. Hahaha. 3) It started to rain half hour after we've reached. :(

One thing to note, I hope whoever's going there.. Do the trekking down hill. To go nearer the crater and whatnots. I'm sure it'll be more fun and you get to see more things. You may wanna read here for more info! :)

   

Yupp, hot spring! Our first there and I think was okay la not too bad. They have those special ones for whole body but none of us wanted to go through the hassle of changing ++.  I personally think it would be better if it's overlooking the sea or something. Hahaha okay shiqin this is not Japan! :P

 NEXT UP, THIS IS A MUST GO! IN FACT, IT'S #1 ON TRIPADVISOR!

 Best if you made reservation but lucky us, we waited for around 20 mins, which we actually took the time to do our Zohor prayers and to walk around at the gift shop. Your name will called out across the PA system and you'll be directed to your "table". The place is extremely cozy and with the perfect weather, nothing can go wrong, ever.

 I admit whole-heartedly that the photos are badly taken because 1) Really poor lightning. 2) We were famished beyond words! I just any how snap and then everyone took their plate! Those are the food that would make me wanna fly back to Bandung and eat. In fact, I might just next year! The Gurame was fresh, the bebek was cooked really well (hardly any smell), the meal for two, which was one of Sudanese traditional, was ahhh soo niceeee. Haiz I'm missing it already! :(

THE MOST IMPORTANT THING WAS, EVERY SINGLE FOOD ORDERED AND CAME WAS SERVED HOT, WAS SPICY AND EXTREMELY DELICIOUS. NO REGRETS, AT ALL.

Happy or rather, happier faces after THE meal! Hehehe. I'll be back with Day 3 tonight or later.. If I've got nothing much at work! Have a good mid-week lovelies! XOXO.