Oh dear god, show me how will you?

You know what they say, you  won't understand till you're going through it yourself. I can't believe such feelings would make a comeback. In fact, it wouldn't have if I hadn't dream of us three and when I come to think of it, it's annoying. Like whattttt and whyyyy the hell do I have dreams like that?

It's pointless and useless. Benefits nobody and most of all, sucks to begin your day with a huge lump in your chest and I've been waking up with such feelings. Petty sure this is gonna continue till I make a put a stop to it though I've no idea how. I tried to be strong but sometimes there are limits to it.

Never had these been easy. I don't even know where to start.

Just a thought I thought.

How do you fall in love with the same man again and again and.. again? I can't wait for that to happen! Haha.

Baby, keep your eyes on me.

Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now

Love hate you me shiqin ------

Pardon my attempts to make ze blog less wordy.

 

One of those days when I have the luxury or time to snap a few photos and add some meaningful quotes or some nonsense shiqin-crap before uploading on Instagram. Hahaha. Anyway, since I've not seeing or dating a single soul, I.. Decide to make full use of time-money-energy to make money and then.. PAMPER MYSELF. :P

Let's be honest, how many of you guys of there actually knowwww how to make pancakes? Yeah prolly 1 out of 20? Hahaha. So easiest way out is prolly to set a breakfast date with me or.. You can also just get me Nasi Ambeng for breakfast. If you do get me the latter, we'll definitely get off on a good note. HEHE.

I've always wanted to try out Benefit products and when The Big 10 was made available, I quickly made my purchase. Have yet to try most of the items though but I loveeee the Benetint and Posietint. Those are the only two that I've tried prior to purchasing it. Francesca told be via Instagram that the Erase Paste is pretty neat. I honestly can't wait to try it all!

 "Can geng you geng. Can siam you siam. Cannot siam, you MC. Cannot MC, you act blur. Cannot act blur, you act siao." Hahaha. Immediately after I posted that on Twitter and FB, I got a couple of friends that asked me out for a movie but of course.. I stick to my girlfriends. Hahaha. Ps; At the rate I'm going, I'd be dateless in time to come. Imah was the one that initiated the meet-up and we got Atiqah to come along. I mean, all 3 of us want to watch part 2 and it was settled on a Saturday night! Let's not start on the crown outside Cineleisure shall we? I feel damn old when I see all this young hipsters or coolious-wannabes. At times, I think they are pretty pathetic too.

Nothing's ever complete without food isn't it? :P

Therefore, Newton it was for supper before we all cabbed home and I must mention that I love nights like that. Simple and fuss-free. I appreciate the girls and their meet-up style. No leceh2 plan for years and then nothing good comes out of it. Haha.

Cold.

I've a feeling that this space will be where I rant my anger on and here it goes..

1. I'm sick. Sick and tired of everything (sure this sounds way too familiar am I right?). Been down with fever, cough and flu for the past 1 week and what's sickening is that nothing's getting better. I've spam all the medication I'm supposed to take. I eat proper and I have enough rest! So.. What the hell is going on with my immunity? IDK.
2. I'm pretty fed up with my complexion. Spent what seems like a bomb to me at DRX and it's 2 weeks and I've yet to see any results. Hahaha ya you may that I'm not patient enough.
3. In fact, I've been patient for too many things for too long till IDK what I'm supposed to wait anymore. And no, I'm no longer talking about my complexion here.
4. I believe that god is testing me in all possible ways he can and shall.. Continue to be patient.
5. Patience a virtue.

HAHA okay sorry people if all those above are meaningless.

This Sunday is the day that I'm looking forward to most. It'll be a dinner night out at Scotts Square with my babes to celebrate my overworked darling Syaff who turned 23 yesterday! I miss all of them so much and I hope that the short period of time that we get to spend, will suffice for the many weeks that we've not met.

Till then xx

Close to nothing but boy why aren't I surprised.

Thank god I didn't prove my point further. It's always a waste of time when it comes to you.
Or should I say, me?

Only for tonight.

Baby bring your love I can bring my shame
Bring the drugs baby I can bring my pain
I got my heart right here
I got my scars right here

Or do you not think so far ahead?

One more day to one year of being solo. Never had it crossed my mind that plans we made ended up happening with someone else. True you're tying the knot soon and I have nothing but happiness for you both. There came a time when I realized that perhaps.. We were never meant to be together. I no longer have this "hatred" for guys or relationships. I just have this phobia of being lied to / be cheated on. That's all.

 Above it all, I'm glad that things turn out to be this way for this means, I'm a step closer to the one that's truly meant for me. At the very least, that's what I hope. Hahaha. For those couple out there who are celebrating your love for each other tomorrow or any other day of the week... Have fun! *winks*

"I keep myself busy with things I do, but everytime I pause, I still think of you."

This CNY holiday surely came as a breather for me. Uni assignment's been piling up and work's catching up as well. I mean.. What's new right? My life is supposed to be like for the next 3 years or so. I hope I have the strength to carry on till then because it's been barely 6 months (of uni) and I feel so irritatedly-tired with the amount of workload I have to deal with everyday. What's worse is I gotta work for the next 40 years of my life or so. Unless.. I'm lucky enough to marry a loving-responsible man whom can support me well and I can be a tai-tai at the age of 40 or something. Hahaha me and never ending berangan aka unrealistic dreams.

Standard of living in Singapore are crazier by the day and I don't think there's a way for only one parent to be working except if one's monthly income could hit a minumum of 5k/month. Then the other parent can take a "break" and take care of the household duties. Fyi, I don't like the idea of having a helper. In fact, I'd rather do all the cooking + cleaning myself and honestly, I enjoy doing so la. All that sweat is like chicken mcnuggets to me. HAHA. As much as "anything for the hubby and kiddos", I'd want to be pampered and loved 24/7 too! C'mon who doesn't?

Others need to know that I've thought long and hard before I made the decision to pay Dr Angela at Derma Rx a visit. I am fully aware of the amount of money I'm bound to spend because I've done tons or research on them. I've saved and I used nobody's money except for mine. No regrets on my end because I want (desperately) a better complexion and nothing less. If these products doesn't work, I'd prolly stop and take it that my skin/blood/hormones are just acne-prone. Like.. Just my luck that the pimples/scars love me too much till the the don't want to leave my face. Haha. Anyway, I plan to make a comparison or rather, a short review between Tabitha Skincare and Derma Rx very soon (gimme me like 3 weeks for me to do a review for Derma Rx? Tabitha might be up next week or so) as I believe that good things should be shared and I will, just pray hard that I'll have the time to blog about it.

xx

There's nothing like us, there's nothing like you and me. Guess that this is meant to be. Tell me was it worth it?

We all smile and fake our way through.

#justsaying.

If you don't see the need to constantly improve on yourself, that's very well your own problem. Don't come here to compare, bitch, gossip or complain. Thanks.

If you don't make an effort to keep the friendship/relationship going, then what makes you think the other side will fight for it? Honestly, I know who bothers and who doesn't. This comes from personal experience if you'd ever ask and if you think you're better off without me/us, sure.

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