To live in the moment or.. Think for the future.

There are times where you completely and whole heartedly wants to live for the moment and not have a single worry for the future. Some may say that it’s a foolish thing to do but how do you know how long more you’re gonna live for? I hate it when such thoughts creeps up on me. It’s not exactly healthy because then I would be spending unnecessarily and that would suck because we all know that savings are important. And so is having fun in life. Giving back to family, friends and society. All these traits and values are what I want to instill to the future generation. Amal jariah and berkat doa mak ayah are 2 things that I can’t emphasize any further. I believe that little things like this are what brings me forward and to constantly push myself to be a better individual.

On another note, I’ll be enrolling and finally putting money to good use next weekend. PADI Open Water Dive certificate shall in sha allah be mine before the end of year. So so glad that my sister ketiak mama (no she does not stink nor is her underarms like ketiak mama but we had jokes and that nickname kinda stuck to her hahahahaha) have decided to go ahead and do it together with me. Else, it is gonna be a solo trip x gift for myself. I say this because I’m at a loss of what to get for myself this 30^thNovember. Okay that's a lie. I want Kat Von D's lipsticks, Too Faced Makeup Set, my usual Chance Chance, a slim fit classic black leather jacket and.. Right that is all I need/want. Hahahahahaha.

Sure it is a pretty long way but time flies. Once I have this certificate down, I’m gonna start booking a flight ticket to Aussie land for a week long vacay March 2015. I wished accommodation can be cheaper or that I can drag along a bunch of friends to split cost of apartment with. Any takers?

Just so you know.. Skydiving, is #1 in 2015 to do list.

There you go.

When your heart skips a beat. When you lose sleep thinking of the what ifs. When prayers are done together. When you look forward to midnights. The lights. The cranes. The breeze. The omgs. The wths. A freaking zoo in your stomach. Flipping emotions. Unexpected concerns. Hilarious conversations. Comfortable silence. All. Of. It.

Raya 2014 Outfits.

The second and forth outfit are specially tailored for this year's Aidilfitri and though it might have been a bit costly, it was worth it in my eyes. I loved how both the top and bottom fits me nicely and the workmanship of the seamstress, flawless. For someone who wants everything to be done properly, this old lady sure ace it! Whereas the first and third outfit are hand me downs. The lace green kebaya was from my grands and I used one of my baju kurung pahang's kain which has got a long slit which enables me to walk with east. Not very sure of the material but hell it's soft! The thai pink silk belongs to mom as well and we had it tailored some time 5-6 years back? Yeap, we take care of our baju very well! Still looking clean and new after all these years and it's simple yet, sweet. Like me... HAHAHAHA.

 Credits goes to my youngest sister for layaning aka entertaining me with taking of my outfits. By far, she is the best in taking good pretty shots of me. Hehehe love you AB! And I know this is too early for me to say as we never know if we would be able to celebrate Eid 2015 but I already have plans for next year's outfit. In sha allah, I might don an Alia Bastamam inspired baju! xx

Ever since that black out.

It’s always a case of you know yourself best and lately, I feel like as if my immunity level dropped. I’m not as strong as I was before and it’s so damn annoying because I don’t know why. It’s not as if the level of food intake has decreased nor have my activity level increased. None of that happened but I frequently am getting fainting spells in the morning. Currently I’m assuming that a glass of coffee won’t be sufficient anymore. I need a proper sandwich or bagel (with cream cheese please) or whatever la. I just need some sort of food in my body early morning else I’ll feel one kind of weak. I swear it’s annoying and I don’t wish to inform people around me because it simply makes me look.. Bad. I know that typing it out here isn’t much of a difference but I just need to get it out of my heart.

I’m worried, for myself.

My metabolism is not as high as it was before.

I've been having too much good food lately and I'm feeling extremely guilty.. I mean, I eat because I'm hungry(24/7 hungry laaa!!!) and I have lesser self control when it comes to rice and what nots. Gaining a little bit of weight is fine but not to the extend where my arms are hugeeee, to me at least. Not only that, my stomach is soooo cute and erm ROUND just like my face. Hahahaha omg I can't stand it and I know I've gotta start exercising before I balloon up. Cmon, everything is possible right? :P

To snack less or bring my own fruits to work have yet to happen as I'm always munching on those biscuits or chocolates over at work, during tea time especially. I'm blaming the the snack counter as it is nothing but pure evil but yeah sure we all have a choice to make in life. Fyi, I'm usually at my weakest at 5.00pm. Royal rumble in the tummy. Tsk! Anyway, I hope I can lose 2-3kg by end of September and be back to my previous weight. Shouldn't be a problem right? Since I have lessons after work, thrice a week starting next week onwards! Fatigue kicks in and I can lose weight. Hahahaha me and my wishful thoughts..

Gotta have some chin definition, lose an inch on the arms and erm.. Gain some abs. *coughs loudly*

Quite a number of Instagrammers commented that 1) i look like above. 2) asked if that's me. 3) thought that that's meeeee. Hahahaha omg I'm so touched guys. Never knew I had that image planted in your mind. Okay okay enough sorry bye.