Eid al-Adha.

It was the time of the month for me therefore I couldn't perform the Hari Raya Haji prayers. Such a waste but oh wells there isn't much I can do except to help with preparing of food in the morning before dolling up like a doll. Why doll? Because doll has proper make-up on and that was what I did. Hahaha.

I've decided on a purple songket top that belongs to my aunt and that belongs to her for a good 24 odd years. She had it on during my mom's engagement. A sentimental piece indeed and I loveeee such stuffs. 

Photos with the sisters because we are vain like that and I kinda.. Forced them to take multiple shots with me hahaha but obviously that wasn't a problem to any of them. It's normal for such to happen! :P

Before heading out to my uncle's place where my grandma (maternal) is and to meet the rest of my crazy lovely cousins that I'll never get tired or bored of, I decide to change into one of mom's dress! Love how it fits perfectly and makes my new Melissa Wedges pop in comparison of color. It did leave a burn on the left side of my feet but I'm determined to wear it till it seasons. I've worn 4 out of 8 pairs of shoe I got from the Pedder Sale and I'm looking forward to wear the rest!

Bought the Chanel Chance Eau Tendre last year after I came back from my birthday Phuket trip and I'm left with one final refill and it's good to go! I'm eyeing on the same same but different Chanel Chance. It's not the pink (current one you're seeing as above) nor the green one but the original bottle that's in gold. "Round like the wheel of fortune, CHANCE transforms into an irresistible purse spray!" Most convenient ever. 

Till then, xx.

Nike Free Flyknit+

Both looks absolutely perfect in my eyes!!! But unfortunately I'm banned from buying anymore shoes till next year? I don't know..
What I do know is that if I were to buy, my dad's prolly gonna kill me. Hahaha.

Now now nowwwww. #clingymodeon

Will someone pick me up from work and surprise me with a bouquet of peonies and a box of Ladurée macarons?

Random.

Told myself umpteenth time to get a vase for my work desk so that I will have no choice but to buy fresh flowers but it's been monthssss since I last put my words to actions. This may sound crazy but if whoever you are, would like to get me a gift, kindly get me a decent glass vase please.

I swear I'll love you forever.

Tuesday's thoughts.

Too often have I caught myself thinking of my future and it scares me at times where I thought I'm ready for something but in actual fact, I'm not. I know that we are to live life to the fullest and not bring any setbacks hold ourselves from doing what we want and love the most. But, things these days comes with a price. To some, me especially, prefers the finer side and we all know how/where that road goes. No matter that being said, I never fail to spend within my means and I despise people who thinks otherwise without knowing how much I earn, how much money I give to my parents, how much I spend on food and transportation, how much I've cut down on taking cabs, how much discounts I managed to bag home and the list goes on.

Sure humans tend to judge and I'm human too. Don't forget that human makes mistakes.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

One of the craziest three weeks of my life. It first begins with my never ending assignments that are due week after week followed by final presentations for my core module, 2 huge work events (State of the University Address and Official Opening of UTown), I did a bit of last minute part time work with On Pedder and ended up purchasing 8 pairs of shoe + working and meeting new friends, celebrated one of my best girl's 22nd, falling terribly ill (I was down with fever, flu and cough and.. Still am. Haiz god knows when I'm gonna fully recover!) ...

 Despite all that, nothing can break my spirit when it comes to "pampering" myself with my monthly classic mani and pedi, a mini celebration for Atiqah and yes, we literally went ahead with the plan to fund for her 5s and put it up in a frame ala duit hantaran! Hahaha. Not forgetting that I'm just 1 mark away from scoring an A for my core module and I'm not gonna give up for the next exam I'm gonna take. That aside, I have a food and spa weekend that awaits me. Till then, much love my lovelies.

30th

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What happened?

I never thought I'd ever share this here but I need to get it off my chest. I couldn't believe that the man I was in love with, the same man right from the start, ever since I was 17, actually belongs to someone else. I'll never be able to accept the fact that those days and nights spent and the times when I asked if he's single and why he still was, was nothing but just a lie. How could you.. I don't know how to put this but, have an affair when it's months before you tie the knot? But of course, slowly.. I managed to put all the tiny pieces together.

I was the other woman. I was the spare tire. I was second. I was number two.

Crushed, was an understatement but exactly a week after we met, which was and will be the last I'll ever see him, I prayed to god asking that if he was really and never will be mine, show me. Ultimately and quite weirdly I might add, my prayers were answered. Mondays have a different meaning to me from then on and I will never be able to explain how I truly feel. It's a deep mixture between numb, sadness, hate, unbelievable, speechless, and perhaps more numb concoction. I mean.. How the hell did you managed to lie to me over and over again? Better question is, how dumb was I to have believed you? 

In other words, he got married and what breaks my heart the most was that the news didn't come from him. That was what happened.