Omg so true!!!

But as many good stories I read, I read just as many negative stories. Stories on jealousy, stories on bad breakups, stories on how they got backstabbed, so many negative ones… And I can tell from the tone of the emails that the problem isn’t what happened but the problem comes from within. I want to be sympathetic of course, but I wish I can reply some of the emails with a “You are so much better than this. Life goes on so stop dwelling about the past.” Honestly some things in life are so petty. So it doesn’t matter if that girl has 10 more Chanel bags than you do, or that girl is running a successful business, or you’re jealous that your ex is going out with someone hotter. See, emails like these upset me and I feel like I should address this. Please don’t take offense because I am just simply giving my two cents and I honestly think everyone should find the good in life.

These kinds of negativity in our lives can only slow us down. All of this comes from self-pity. Why does this happen to me? Pity me, pity me. No, just no. When we pamper our emotions so much, I think we become weaker in our self-belief. Look, everyone gets tested by God, even those girls you think you hate. Some are easy tests, some are hard tests.. whatever they may be, we must always think God won’t test us if He knows we can’t handle it. God will always be with us, so whenever we feel down, just cry it out to Him (vent all you want, God never asks you to come back later), ask for the best guidance, get back up and off you go to your next meeting. DON’T. WASTE. TIME.

I do this all the time! Anytime I feel down or I can’t decide on something, I will always blab about my problems to God on my prayer mat. Sometimes I could go on and on and on… and I always feel so much stronger after. God is “online” all the time. You’ve just got to have faith that He’s there for you, and whatever test you’re going through, God’s got your back!

Positive vibes to all. *throws positive confetti in your face*

Something new to try.

Just do it?

AIYO.

You see, I was supposed to take baby steps to once again be "healthy & fit" and also to simply keep myself in check. And by keeping myself in check, I meant to actually do the 30-toilet-squats-daily and on-the-bed-leg-lifts but I haven't been doing so! Not forgetting the fact that I have been skipping religiously massaging coconut oil on my legs to help keep it moisturized as well as help with those annoying scars that I seem to perpetually have. -_-

Okay okay part 2 of Vietnam in Mui Ne coming soon!

Day 1 in Ho Chi Minh City

#1 reason why I'm writing these post down is because I miss traveling so much. I would totally have gone somewhere if I actually had nothing to care about but with the recent things happening at home, I'm left with no choice but to prioritize. Not that I'm feeling sore about it but I choose and have to believe that "God have better plans". Though.. I kinda keep asking god whyyyyy la he keeps testing me in this way. Like hello, just let my solo travel plan happen can anot ah? Give me your blessings lei. Hahahahaha. Okay okay, enough of these talks. Pictures and some captions, if I'm not lazy to further elaborate on my itinerary etc. Ahhh this is like a refresher of Day 1 in Ho Chi Minh City...

Because it's close to the end of the year, I can't remember what time exactly we reached but what I do remember is that the minute we touched down, we got into a metered cab and went straight to our first night's accommodation - Kaiteki Capsule Hotel. It was our first time experiencing in such a stay and was pretty "fascinated" at how everything worked in there. We were each given a capsule to sleep in, a password key for our lock which we store our haversack, clean towel and a small bucket for us to put our toiletries that was never used. I'll explain that later... But you guys need to know that I would stay again in this hotel should this be a one night stay in because it's very clean and the whole process was simple, staff tried their best and the people in there are all very easy going. 

It was already past lunch time and we were both very very very hungry and tryna looks for halal food when you're at a non-halal district was not thatttt easy. On second thoughts, it's not that difficult. We were just picky hahahahhaa. But I'm glad we were picky because this restaurant - Baba's Kitchen, that we settled for, was AWESOME. I love it!! And the fact that I'm typing these down, makes me stomach grumble. Or maybe it's close to myyyy lunch time at work la hahahaha.

  Yes it's non other than Indian food and NO REGRETS. I'd give a 10 out of 10 for the Fish Malabar and the service rendered was even better. Heck, I'd give 100/100 for all the food what we chose on the menu. The second photo you see is some kind of a dessert and it was given out for free because they simply wanted us to give it a try. Verdict: Not bad at all! Sweet yet savoury at the same time. I forgot what it's called but the taste was nutty and significant. It was served hot as well! We were lucky that the owner was in and he kindly explained that the spices they got are all from India. Ahhh anything authentic are always a hit.

Thereafter, we went to the The Sinh Tourist which was recommended by Tripadvisor (of course righttt) Ps: Please just get your bookings done there and not online. You'll save a hell lot of money. Back to the story, we thought we were at the wrong street but damnn it was just in front of us and we couldn't see it! Even got "scolded" when we asked an auntie on the streets to direct us to the sop number hahahahaa. Anyway started to book the things we would like to experience while in Vietnam. Because we had no time for the Mekong River, we settled for Cu Ci Tunnel and learnt a lotttt about what happened during the Vietnam war. Our guide spoke good English, our van was clean but the only thing we didn't enjoy was how loud the American boys were. Eg: They could talk for hours in the mini van with almost no break in between. Merepek dan memekak. Ikotkan hati, nak suroh diam aje but too bad, they are so strong in numbers. -_- 

We are actually exhausted because omgggg the 100m crawl, slide and climb plus the additional 3m deep down in the tunnel sure as hell turn our legs to jelly. But it was nice when we got to eat the ubi (pardon me, but I can't recall what it is in English!!) and we dip it in this sugar peanuts thingy for some flavour. It was nice. I mean.. If you're hungry, everything's nice right? HAHA.

Oh yes, earlier I mentioned that I'll explain to you why the bucket that was given to us to put our toiletries weren't use. This was why - NO WATER IN THE CAPSULE HOTEL. Yupp I kid you not. They said there was some kinda trouble trying to pump water up to the all the floors and there were some who left the hotel, asking for refunds and moved to a different hotel. Us? We thought the problem would be rectified when we came back at night, at about 10pm. But nooooo there was none. Imagine us sweaty, probably smelly and disgusted with ourselves. Like helloooo, Cu Ci Tunnel ain't exactly a breeze in the park okay. Sooooooooo, we ended up knocking at different massage and spa places asking if we could use their toilet to shower. HAHAHAHA. Thank god some kind soul allowed us to do so but as long as we took up their massage services. By the time we were done, it was close to 1am? Idk, it was just really quiet and pretty scary because by then there was almost no more tourists and we two girls had to walkkk back to the hotel.

But you know, doing something out of the ordinary is always f-u-n.

NEXT MORNING, WATER WAS AVAILABLE BUT WE DID NOT SHOWER BECAUSE WE DID NOT FACTOR TIME FOR IT. JUST BRUSHED TEETH, CLEANSE OUR FACES AND STRAIGHT TO MEETING POINT FOR OUR SLEEPER BUS. YES, IN OUR PJS. HEHEEHEHE SO NICEEE. #dontbejudgemental

Maybe I'm just extra sensitive.

Recently, I've kinda made a mental decision to simply slowly, avoid things or people that no longer serves a purpose in my life. It may sound a little harsh but it's just that I feel some efforts are not worth putting into when they don't reciprocate. For example, when the person comes to you when they are bored and have nobody to texts or when the person comes to you when they need something. But aside from that, they don't bother texting whatsoever. They talk about themselves and only themselves. They don't bother asking how you've been and etc. I do know that from the bottom of my heart that I'll do a rain check every now and then. But of course, everything will have to work both way but when it doesn't', that's when you know that you have to take a step back.

I have to admit though that I've haven't been very specific in my prayers and I shall do so when I'm done with this month's torturous week aka menses cramps. On top of that, besides being a self-proclaimed goal digger/high achiever.. I need to put in more effort in everything single thing that I do. First and foremost, it shall begin with doing my daily reading because I'm starting to get a lil nervous on handling two modules this trimester and there's no way I can afford to repeat module. Secondly, I will and must do 30 squats + 30 leg raise every other day. Squats in the shower and leg raise before bedtime. Let's see if I can stick to this for a month. Will update you loves!

Third trimester of 2016 (nope, not pregnant.. yet)

Oh yes, here I am, back to business, blogging business. HAHA. Anywayyyy I'm doing a module called Chinese Business this semester and omgggg as much as it was interesting, I almost died in the class because it was dry?

I don't know how to explain it but there was just so many things to learn and to read up on. Please note that I had zero knowledge about Chinese culture and history. The only thing I probably know is that they get red packets with losta 000s at the end of CNY, the PRCs speaks like as if they are shouting and some do not shower in the morning. Pffttt if you take the public transport like me, you'll totally understand. *fist bump*

The point is... I NEED TO START READING ON MARXISM, MAOISM AND omg another one I forgot what. Didn't write it down because I didn't bring a pen on my first class of the semester. Yeah, way to go Shiqin! That being said, I made use of technology. I simply type down whatever I thought was important. Like, to have Mutton Soup at Adam's Road, or settle for Beef Bak Ku Teh at Gombak because it's just a stone away from home. Of course, the latter wins. It was past 11pm mind you. Me no energy.

Update: OKAY, I REMEMBERED THE THIRD POINT. IT'S CALLED GUANXI.

So old. So so old...

Omg I cannot believe this place still exists. It's been way too long and I'm unsure if I should even continue writing but I can't keep on writing on Windows 10 notepad and delete them at the end of the day right? Some things, feelings or emotions, goals and whatnot, have to be written somewhere for erm.. Memories sake? Yeah.

I'm not too sure how long this whole writing or blogging, you may say, is gonna last. But I'll update when I update. Would be lying if I say I don't have the time because I kinda always do. It's quite a chill-out period at work because we justtt finished a huge ass Istana event which involves the UN Secretary General. And I'm almost done with my pathetic 2 weeks of school break. I mean really, I didn't even get to go to USS!! Ps: Zaki and I are officially season pass holders a few months back. I got the free passes from work and just had to top up $20+ for a 6months pass. Too good of a deal to say no.

Damnnn I really gotta drag my other half before we get busy. By busy, I meant, his school, my school and my never ending events. Bleahhh. Is this how a soon-to-be-26-year-old feels?

Nenek kebayan.

We weren't quite sure of throwing Faezah's a ball of a bachelorrette party butttt we do know that a few hours of good food (had a dinner buffet at 21 on Rajah and notttt bad lei, I thought it was value for money) and just us chilling, talking, gossiping (okay la not really gossip, we are just busy "explaining" our problems), listening to one another's joy and sorrows, laughing and then eating again are one of those best moments we could have. I believe that was sufficient and really hope that's one of those nights that Faezah, and us all could remember when we are all neneks. Hahahahaa.

 Yes, till we all become Nenek. In sha allah.

My current lust.

Tod's Gommino Driving Shoes.

 

I'm wearing a Ferragamo ballerina flats on a daily basis (for work!) but I now noticed that my feet is not designed for such fit. A loafer is still and always the best for those ladies with a wider arch.

Ps: I'm a size 35.5. Hahahahaha.

Not a practising muslim, that's it.

It's scary how I learn to know that couples nowadays are so focused on their wedding and not on improving their own well-being or knowledge before tying the knot. I know it's a life learning process but if you don't have this basic foundation, how do you lead a family? I've seen and known a few friends of mine whose husband and wife does not solat. Either both don't pray or one of them don't. For the record, I don't mean to be mean, be all "judgmental" andddd I've put into consideration that your family background differs but howwww can this one important step be missing in your life? Honestly, I'm curious as to how these bunch of people, married or not, still drink alcohol and piling up on their tattoo and you as a wife/husband is okay with it? As crazy as this may sound, you have a child and he/she is looking at such. Oh god. Is that how things are supposed to be? To a good start to building a Muslim family? And when I listen/see/know to their problems, their quarrels and arguments in later parts of their life, I stream lined it all to one. The basic, and they did not do. Idk man, I hope god opens up their heart to do that one very step.

If I get a hunter.

Nothing to update but I'm just digging this boot in particular.

Nakfah untuk isteri atau ibu lebih penting?

"Melihat pada kasus Anda, hendaknya suami mendahulukan yang menjadi kewajibannya, yaitu menafkahi isteri dan anak. Jika kondisinya benar-benar tidak mampu menafkahi ibunya, maka suami tidak berdosa karena Allah tidak membebani seseorang di luar kemampuannya. Hanya saja, hal ini harus dibicarakan secara baik-baik disertai dg pemberian pemahaman. Kalau ibu masih tetap bersikeras untuk mendapat nafkah suami, sementara Anda sebagai isteri ridha demi untuk menjaga keutuhan dan kebahagiaan rumah tangga, maka Anda mendapatkan pahala yang besar insya Allah. Namun jika tidak ridha, Anda berhak untuk menuntut suami."

For more, click here and here please. 

Obviously I have plenty of free time to have been reading and researching.

So much for "travelling on a hiatus".

Dad asked if anyone wants to follow him and mom to Melaka for a wedding and I thought, hey why not balik kampung? Also, I've been wanting to go for a mini trip with my parents sans the sisters hahahaha. Getting stucked at home with them for a long weekend.. I cannot do it anymore manz. I'll turn into a monster and one of my resolution is to be patient and I don't wanna burst it very early of the year. :P

For the record, I can't stand girls who:

•  Wake up past 10am.

• Takes forever to help with the house chore. FYI, I'm the kinda person that would be done doing the laundry, vacuumed the whole house, wipe down the window grills, sanitized my vanity area and wash all my makeup brushes, fold all my clothes and on some weekends, I'll help mom to cook and everything will be completed before it strikes noon. To also note that I do this kinda cleaning every Saturday morning. I loveeeeeeee cleaning as it gives me a sense of satisfaction. But I get really irritated when no one helps to clean orrr will do all the cleaning up at after lunch and dilly dally with their time. Nak mintak kene spray air!

 Nonetheless, I'm really thankful that my second sister, Shahidah, have been really helpful in keeping the room and house neat and tidy. Praying hard that she will cultivate all this sincerely and continue doing so when I'm no longer around. My parents, are not getting any younger yo! :(

Anyway, we are hoping that there will still be available bus tickets during the CNY period despite the news that I've been reading. I can't wait to purchase a VVIP coach for the Melaka tip + we've agreed on a Peranakan theme boutique hotel for our 2 nights there! We planned to head to Larkin this Saturday noon and may god bless us with zero queue for whatsoever. It'll also be a great time for me to stock up on my ZA two way powder (uses this to set my liquid foundie), wet wipes (yes please!) and get myself a hair trim! x

"You can't wait forever. Do something and make it happen."

I set to be the best that I can be but I tend to stop doing things halfway. So much words and so little actions from me to myself and the only person to blame is.. Yeah you know, me. I know that perhaps my life is supposed to go the other way around but disappointment creeps in once in a while and I'll question why haven't I complete a certain "achievement" bla bla bla. I don't know if I'm supposed to lower my expectations and work with what I have now or what? Scratch that. On second thoughts, that's what I will have to do - Work with what I have. I choose not to lower any expectations till I try completing it even if it takes me 5 years to do. Will be 30 years old by then but heck, better late than never. And nope, shall not write down the list of things I wanna complete but I will do so when I get some real action going.

At the end of the day, I'm doing this for myself and no one else.

November 29th.

I left for Phuket a day before my birthday and the plan was to meet my family there once they're done with their 4D3N in Bangkok. As much as I was excited, I was feeling anxious or rather, very gelisah for god knows why. I mean, I've been on a plane on my own twice before so... I don't know what kinda emotions settled in me but ya. My Sayang picked me up at around 8ish right after NUS 110 Concert in the Park ended (this is another event altogether and my source of income for the past 3 years 8 months fyi hahaha). In fact that few days prior to 30th November, he's been such a sweetheart fetching, feeding, carrying, whatever la. He did it all and I'm one hell of a lucky lady. I just hope he feels like he's the luckiest man on earth as well. :P

 The card that he bought and had an essay in it, is something that I keep close to my heart. And you know, when someone writes from his/her heart, you can somehow feel it. This goes to their actions as well. He picked that gorgeous pair ("paling lawa kalau you yang pakai") but that other silver ware was what I had the most fun with. It's a musical turn and twist thingy that will play the tune of a 'Happy Birthday' song in the most classical way ever. It was something he got when he was in New Zealand and have been keeping it for the longest time (boy was he excited when he it was November 29th!) before he surprises me with it! I love it. Also, that's the second red box he got me for our special occasion. Will the third red box be it? #ifyouknowwhatimean

Had a quick dinner at Al-Azhar before I head home to do finally packing. Zaki left for his usual midnight soccer match and here comes the scary part. He went to JB right after for petrol x car wash x burger, the usual things he or we do when we have time together butttt there was a slight jam when he's entering back to SG anddddd he fetched me a little late to the airport. Both of us were pretty cool and we could have reached on time if there wasn't a traffic jam (again) at the east side. Thank god he was smart + confident enough and I was a willing risk taker (i'm barely one), to re-route our self in order to avoid the slow moving traffic. Rushed and the moment when we had to part ways, I did so reluctantly but I got out of the car quite fast as I was afraid I would cry. HAHAHA yupp I was bloody emotional. Ps: 3rd day of menses and bleeding heavily. Stupid. So annoying.

+ I didn't have to queue for my boarding pass. I just have to scan my itinerary and passport then voila, boarding pass's printed automatically! That surely saved a lot of time and of course, I had to call him back to ask if he had driven far or still have a chance to park to see me off. #wantedtocrysayinggoodbye #clingyiknow. I had a feeling that he either was driving slowly or actually did a quick u-turn to park at T2? Before he took the sky train and met me beside the famous tear drops of Changi Airport. Anyway, we lingered around for 10mins (KFC had a longgg queue and I was honestly famished but luck wasn't exactly on our side) before it's time for me to rush in. At that very moment, I knew I love this dude too much. Way too much and that's erm.. Scary guise.