So old. So so old...

Omg I cannot believe this place still exists. It's been way too long and I'm unsure if I should even continue writing but I can't keep on writing on Windows 10 notepad and delete them at the end of the day right? Some things, feelings or emotions, goals and whatnot, have to be written somewhere for erm.. Memories sake? Yeah.

I'm not too sure how long this whole writing or blogging, you may say, is gonna last. But I'll update when I update. Would be lying if I say I don't have the time because I kinda always do. It's quite a chill-out period at work because we justtt finished a huge ass Istana event which involves the UN Secretary General. And I'm almost done with my pathetic 2 weeks of school break. I mean really, I didn't even get to go to USS!! Ps: Zaki and I are officially season pass holders a few months back. I got the free passes from work and just had to top up $20+ for a 6months pass. Too good of a deal to say no.

Damnnn I really gotta drag my other half before we get busy. By busy, I meant, his school, my school and my never ending events. Bleahhh. Is this how a soon-to-be-26-year-old feels?

Nenek kebayan.

We weren't quite sure of throwing Faezah's a ball of a bachelorrette party butttt we do know that a few hours of good food (had a dinner buffet at 21 on Rajah and notttt bad lei, I thought it was value for money) and just us chilling, talking, gossiping (okay la not really gossip, we are just busy "explaining" our problems), listening to one another's joy and sorrows, laughing and then eating again are one of those best moments we could have. I believe that was sufficient and really hope that's one of those nights that Faezah, and us all could remember when we are all neneks. Hahahahaa.

 Yes, till we all become Nenek. In sha allah.

My current lust.

Tod's Gommino Driving Shoes.

 

I'm wearing a Ferragamo ballerina flats on a daily basis (for work!) but I now noticed that my feet is not designed for such fit. A loafer is still and always the best for those ladies with a wider arch.

Ps: I'm a size 35.5. Hahahahaha.

Not a practising muslim, that's it.

It's scary how I learn to know that couples nowadays are so focused on their wedding and not on improving their own well-being or knowledge before tying the knot. I know it's a life learning process but if you don't have this basic foundation, how do you lead a family? I've seen and known a few friends of mine whose husband and wife does not solat. Either both don't pray or one of them don't. For the record, I don't mean to be mean, be all "judgmental" andddd I've put into consideration that your family background differs but howwww can this one important step be missing in your life? Honestly, I'm curious as to how these bunch of people, married or not, still drink alcohol and piling up on their tattoo and you as a wife/husband is okay with it? As crazy as this may sound, you have a child and he/she is looking at such. Oh god. Is that how things are supposed to be? To a good start to building a Muslim family? And when I listen/see/know to their problems, their quarrels and arguments in later parts of their life, I stream lined it all to one. The basic, and they did not do. Idk man, I hope god opens up their heart to do that one very step.

If I get a hunter.

Nothing to update but I'm just digging this boot in particular.

Nakfah untuk isteri atau ibu lebih penting?

"Melihat pada kasus Anda, hendaknya suami mendahulukan yang menjadi kewajibannya, yaitu menafkahi isteri dan anak. Jika kondisinya benar-benar tidak mampu menafkahi ibunya, maka suami tidak berdosa karena Allah tidak membebani seseorang di luar kemampuannya. Hanya saja, hal ini harus dibicarakan secara baik-baik disertai dg pemberian pemahaman. Kalau ibu masih tetap bersikeras untuk mendapat nafkah suami, sementara Anda sebagai isteri ridha demi untuk menjaga keutuhan dan kebahagiaan rumah tangga, maka Anda mendapatkan pahala yang besar insya Allah. Namun jika tidak ridha, Anda berhak untuk menuntut suami."

For more, click here and here please. 

Obviously I have plenty of free time to have been reading and researching.

So much for "travelling on a hiatus".

Dad asked if anyone wants to follow him and mom to Melaka for a wedding and I thought, hey why not balik kampung? Also, I've been wanting to go for a mini trip with my parents sans the sisters hahahaha. Getting stucked at home with them for a long weekend.. I cannot do it anymore manz. I'll turn into a monster and one of my resolution is to be patient and I don't wanna burst it very early of the year. :P

For the record, I can't stand girls who:

•  Wake up past 10am.

• Takes forever to help with the house chore. FYI, I'm the kinda person that would be done doing the laundry, vacuumed the whole house, wipe down the window grills, sanitized my vanity area and wash all my makeup brushes, fold all my clothes and on some weekends, I'll help mom to cook and everything will be completed before it strikes noon. To also note that I do this kinda cleaning every Saturday morning. I loveeeeeeee cleaning as it gives me a sense of satisfaction. But I get really irritated when no one helps to clean orrr will do all the cleaning up at after lunch and dilly dally with their time. Nak mintak kene spray air!

 Nonetheless, I'm really thankful that my second sister, Shahidah, have been really helpful in keeping the room and house neat and tidy. Praying hard that she will cultivate all this sincerely and continue doing so when I'm no longer around. My parents, are not getting any younger yo! :(

Anyway, we are hoping that there will still be available bus tickets during the CNY period despite the news that I've been reading. I can't wait to purchase a VVIP coach for the Melaka tip + we've agreed on a Peranakan theme boutique hotel for our 2 nights there! We planned to head to Larkin this Saturday noon and may god bless us with zero queue for whatsoever. It'll also be a great time for me to stock up on my ZA two way powder (uses this to set my liquid foundie), wet wipes (yes please!) and get myself a hair trim! x

"You can't wait forever. Do something and make it happen."

I set to be the best that I can be but I tend to stop doing things halfway. So much words and so little actions from me to myself and the only person to blame is.. Yeah you know, me. I know that perhaps my life is supposed to go the other way around but disappointment creeps in once in a while and I'll question why haven't I complete a certain "achievement" bla bla bla. I don't know if I'm supposed to lower my expectations and work with what I have now or what? Scratch that. On second thoughts, that's what I will have to do - Work with what I have. I choose not to lower any expectations till I try completing it even if it takes me 5 years to do. Will be 30 years old by then but heck, better late than never. And nope, shall not write down the list of things I wanna complete but I will do so when I get some real action going.

At the end of the day, I'm doing this for myself and no one else.